Told you so

NEW YEARS RESOLUTION !

Be a good girl, dont make mommehh maddddd ( but most likely she'll make me mad :P)

Study super hard ! ( sit near the screen so i dont need my specs :B)

Still keep friends close so that i can share any problem with them :)

Always Pay Attention

Try to get 1st in religious class since its new people now :o

Dont go out.

Scream less at home :P

Prayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy often ! :)

I think i would love to smash my handphone ;)

Complete my homework and stop doing in the early mornings of school :)

Probably try to be in prefect's exco ?

Get top 10 in class. :)

Give najwan and vanessa cake(:

and the list goes on .

i love the way i ended the awful 2009 (:
with muchmuch people i love .
i wont forget it .. and hopefully ill stay intact with these people as years go on .

i hope 2010 will be great.

& I REFUSE TO TALK ABOUT SCHOOL CAUSE THEY SUCK WITH THE TIMETABLE.

oh oh ! me and vanessa says we are fillal !
idk what it means. hahahah.
but i knw it means tht we want our to take good care of our parents
and bring them idc where.
but i knw when i work , my first salary goes to my mum ! :)

love my family.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009, 1:41 PM

I LIKE MY TUMBLRZ.
and i had fun chatting wit vanny.
and najwan is outside my house waiting fer cake :P

ok, bye.
going outzxzsxz.

oh, and im on a diet :/
so glad he's not here to stop me :B
emoticon of the day : :B
word of the day : eager
hahaha. goes well with the emoticon.

eager :B

yoz. i havent eaten, and wont :) tataz.

Morning.

11:40 AM

I woke up surprisingly VERY early .
at 945am . heh .( SEE SEE HASSAN ! I CAN WAKE UP EARLY :p)
even earlier than my alarm which set at 1030am!
im still having those butterflies and im worried to death~
nvm . :)

I smell like i just bathed from camp-.-
cause i used the shampoo that i always use during camp.
smellzzz niceeee.
i cant even smell vannyyy who havent bathe :P

So few more hours left.
arghhh , my stomach hurts from all those butterflies !
i laid in bed for TWO or more HOURSSSSS on the bed last night and i couldnt sleep !
i just stared and felt like crying. like omgzxsxzsxz.
something's seriously wrong with meeeeeee.
oh nozzzzzzzzzzz. and i wasnt interested in reading or listening to musiccccczsxzsx.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

k i shall go now-.-

i didnt charge my phone for the past two days, and only today i did !:P
so yerpzxsxzz. and i never held on to my handphone, only now.
im eager :B hahahha a

OH , I WAS GIVEN A LONG SPEECH BY MY VANNY AT MIDNIGHT .
HAHAHAHAHA. WE ARE CRAZYZXSZ.

Youtube.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009, 3:44 PM

kids version bby !

i fcking puking.

1:43 PM

more @ heartsandkisses.tumblr.com

time moveszxzsx faster ehhh .

12:47 PM

i slept around 3 plus.
after getting text from a .
lol. i still feel bad you know . ):
sorryzxsx, and thanks for what you texted me .
;) xxx.

and i woke up at noon despite putting my alarm at 1030am .
but i off-ed it after 1 snooze, haha. expected. xD

so here i am , bored to death .
baking soon. damznxzsx

We only got 86 400 seconds in a day.

Monday, December 28, 2009, 10:37 PM

i feel like crying right now.
i feel so bad..

i stayed at home.

9:20 PM

i miss bby la, like fck .

the most stupid-est photo ever taken by him.

and im soooo glad i managed to realise itttttttttt before he clicked.

Anyway, today slacked to the CORE.

woked up at 1030am and read his text.

heeeheeee, i couldnt afford to wake up damn early manzxsx :P

then i slept again :P woke up at noon . HAHAH .

IM SO LAZY TO WAKE UP ! GOT NTH EHHH .

then it raind-.-

then i slept again at 3pm . I WAS BORED, SO SHUT UP .

blast my song while i was sleeping cause my sister was super

irritating ! she was singing like some opera FREAK !

-.-

Woke up at 5pm and ATE.

hahahahah, im becoming fat, damnit.

HAHAHAH . IM PARANOID. SHUT UP SHUT UP .

:) okay, so im so bored.

hahahahahhahahaha.

tmr MIGHT go gym with MY ETERNITY, VANNY !

(: then out with mum , i suppose. boooo .

currently 947pm. i am lmao !

ashfuk_agil@hotmail.com says:
Nah. Peps should contact me.

A complete Nut- Case. says:
but you contact me -.-

ashfuk_agil@hotmail.com says:
Tat 1 lain ah.

A complete Nut- Case. says:
haha ! where got lain . haha . kaykay .

--
weirdo !

Moving Out.

Sunday, December 27, 2009, 8:25 PM

Title has nth to do with anything .
heeeeheeeeeeeee.

k he going camp for three days.

okay, just fyi. i didnt change guy . :)
im sucha good girl, so dont think of it tht way, okay ?
i dont change guys, fast. i think.
..... right ?

&& i think sezairi is a good performer. :D
i just hopeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, thatt their album will be great.
heh , idc who win tho. i think.

Welcomeyz.

Saturday, December 26, 2009, 7:55 PM

Hello my dearies.
Sec 1 (new batch) are pretty much havoc,
but i can say some are presentable :)
but well, there are those who dye hair.
and i have to say that malays are on the rise.
also , ahbengs/ahlians. :)
I notice our batch dont have these type of people, dont you think ?
Compare ourselves to the current sec 1s and sec3s.
we're not the same.

haha.
:D

i love doing duty, its fun.
parents do ask me stupid questions.
and i answered one of em wrongly. oops. not my fault. i didnt know !
:P
"whats the cut off point for coral ? "
uhm, idk ! like duh , do i look like the principle?
hello ? you sent yr child, didnt you like, read? -.-

-

ECP was great. Went out with these peeps.

Waited for Rayyan .
Then took 51 and 15 with him.
that idiot, whole time bully me -.-
fck. -.-
so yeah , we talk shit.

Met up with the others at Parkway .
Walked to ECP. :D
saw catt !
hahaha .:D

we all rode v fast, took twin bike :D
cause idk how to bike :P
reached bedok jetty took pics.

and then we head off to mcs and eat :)
thenzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
we rode again for awhile, then we head off at 5pm :D

Rayyan head off first.
then we all head to parkway .
guys went home.
the rest of us went to the mall :D
Jannah went off with the cousin :)

so left three of us .

We went home around 7pm :D
then i walked by myself to my bus stop. reached home at 735 ?
yeah . :DDDDD

so donezzz! ! buh bye .

gonna miss you, when youre gone.

Hi awak (You&Me)

5:38 PM

Hi awk, kite syg awk.
awk lame nye on ?
kiteeeeee bored sekali tau awk.
awk, awk janji awk jgn tinggalkn saya ok ?
tapi kalau awk dah tk syg saya, dipersilakan. :)

(okay, heeeh, i just crack my cup :P and its breaking ! too strong alr laaa. xD )

kay la, awk nk gi camp soon. so saya tk nk kluar.
k stop it seyh nadd , seriously -.-

idc what to say eh. i say here like very so public ~
zzz, nnti naj kacau . :P

okayyyokayyyy . update soon kay peeps.

A break .

Friday, December 25, 2009, 6:07 PM

Finally a break .
hahaha .
MERRY CHRISTMAS, TO YOUÁLL WHO'S CELEBRATING d:

okay, i dont feel like updating.
heeeheee. and i had a good rest.
woke at almost noon :)

kay , bye .

WTF

12:08 AM

E SENT ME A XMAS TEXT ?
AND IT IS THE SWEETEST THING THAT HE EVER SAID TO ME IN MY WHOLE LIFE.
OMG, IS THAT E ?
GEEEZ. HE'S INSANE .

Pain.sucks.

Thursday, December 24, 2009, 11:42 PM

Im awfully tired and i feel like killing myself.
My body feels numb and i cant walk, infact even do anyth else ! :'(
I feel so stressed !
Been out the whole week and have been having restless/short sleeps !
Im so glad outing tomorrow with the HMT have been cancelled !
I need a break ! :'(

Monday went to chalet til 130am .
Tuesday woke up at 615 am . and prefect's meeting ended at around 9am.
i left early. straight away went home, reached at 940am and changed and when out again at 1015 am, [EXHAUSTING !!!!!!!! I RUSHED LIKE MAD, he knows. abit. ]
which means i was late to meet vicki and ky . i reached dhoby at 11am . when i was supposed to be there at 1030 . nvm .
Went to Orchard ! (photos in fb)
and had fun , had to leave early for Family Chalet again. Met up with sis at pasir ris around 330.
:D
then head to downtown . went back home at 12am , because i was FREAKING tired ! :'(
but in the end slept at 4am because someone gave me problems.
i really didnt enjoy my time there and i felt fcking suckish . idk . i was like emo-ing and cried on the phone with amalia. heeeheeee. :)
(im feeling warm in the inside , but cold on the outside ): )
kay larh . idc . :)

WEDNESDAY - woke up two hours later the next day :'(
and then ended sec 1 registration early, hung around w someone. and went back at around 3.
took a nap at 4-5pm after i dressed up for later while waiting for dad.
woke up at around 6 and left with mum and sis to orchard at 7pm. ;)
then went back at 11pm . :D andd bought stuff, yey ! hahahah .
i decided to not go to chalet.
okayyyz. thenzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz . slept at 2am

THURSDAY - woke up today at 10am because i was awoken by maira's call -.-
tried to sleep again , but to no avail . ):
then got ready because time was post poned, was having cramps and it sucked to make it worse,
my lips were sore since the day before !!!!
Anyway , so i decided to wait for rayyan and go late, which was around 130pm.
but i alr got ready at 1230. :)
so we both went and met up with them at parkway .

the rest wll be on another day .
(ps : i reached at 8pm)

and now im very tired.
so gimme, a break will you ?

I FEEL SO TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
I CANT EAT CAUSE I FEEL LIKE VOMITING :'(
but i ate mc chicken today only. :)
i woke up today feeling very warm, and feverish , and soarish . i felt like dying. :'(

okay, i wont be a baby, but really !
its sucha pain .

i hate being busy :'(

i dont wanna go out anymore !!!!!
but i need to for ppl . ): & also shopping :P
going out again on mon and tue while bby is away :'(

kay. gdnight.
more details about sec 1 registration and today soon. (:

o.o

11:20 PM

omg, why is everyone liking my fb status ? O.O

-.- stupid r who thinks im better off with e or s -.-
found out s wrote my name. lol.

Aching.

9:48 PM

Hello Readers.
Welcome, okay. It have been quite a long time since i updated myself .
but whatever.

I just came back from Parkway / ECP
w/ the girls and guys . :)
it was awesome and seriously tiring.
reached home around 8 pm . :D

so yerps.
update later.

im confused. .

Wednesday, December 23, 2009, 6:56 PM

Well school was great.
i had two hours of sleep only.
and the last night i had four.
so lethargic.

i think the new batch of sec 1s, are smart
but there are a lot of potential ah beng / lians and mats/ minahs .
comparing to my batch , there's not really any of those.
but can say bitches .
but well, at least we take pride on our looks.
hmmm, nevermind .

ive been busy .
update soon .
going out ot orchard now .

Tiada Dua.

Monday, December 21, 2009, 5:05 PM

Tiada dua bagi ku .
Diriku teruntukmu

Segalanya berubah
Sejak bertentang mata
Debaran ku merasa
Bila mahu menyapa mu.
Should I do it, Should I stay shy..
Could I do anything ?
To make her wanna smile
Bermula cerita kita.

Sedia ku melupa
Sejarah kisah cinta (Yang lama)
Semua tak bermakna
Jika dibandingkan kamu.
Im gonna be true, there's no one but you,
youre gonna be sure
that i will never do you wrong
kasih ku takkan berputus

And I
I cant live my life without you baby.
No way, No way , no how
Thats why Im saying

Tiada dua bagi ku
Genap sudah lukisan ku
take bersempadan
cinta ku terhadap mu

Tiada dua bagi ku
Jangan pernah di ragu
Selami kasih
Keikhlasan hatiku kepadamu
Tiada dua bagi ku

Segenapnya ketara kau menyinari hidupku (Juwita)
Yakinilah kata dusta
Tiada dikamus hatiku
IM gonna give in , youre gonna be loved
Im gonna be everything
youve ever wished and more
ku tujukan nafasku untukmu

bila ku disoal
ertinya cinta
tanpa tanpa ragu dan silu
ku sebutkan namamu, kasih.
diriku teruntukmu

--

Typed that all :)
I some how wished one day someone would sing that to me.

--

Kay la, you know whats like funny?

Its like one day you were thinking alot alot about that special someone.

and thinking and missing so much that it made you cry.

but knowing hours later he didnt even appreciate you

and knowing the next day, he just pushed you away .

break your heart into pieces.

Its ironic.

Didnt know.

I was obsessed for a moment , and now, you just have to get over .

wowwwww, guys take it easy.

you dont know how much im obsessed with you,

that its been a week , 7 days consecutively ive been dreaming of you .

But no one ever calls me that, never will.

And gets away with it, and get the whole of me.

No way. you call me a bitch ?

you get the fuck out of my life since youre unhappy with me.

for now, im just laughing at my girls,

thinking i can hook up with those guys i do talk about.

LIKE LOL .

hahaha, never will , kay babes ?

No one gets me .

heeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Kay la. i know im such an ass.

Who wants me anyway ?

LOL . who am i kidding ?

k sobz.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

if you only know me.

oh well, i nvr had my first kiss.

tooo bad !

;DDD

i mean , yesterday i was like obsessed with him,

god ! reading all his text and mails and i get this

JUST CAUSE I SAID , "SIAK UH ."

but was it like my fault ?

wthhhhhhh, perangai then now i say like tht cant take it ah ?

ppn sial

thks ehk .

ystrday just reminded about the 4th month.

and you do this.

are you a man or a woman siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ?

cant take abit of tough frm me.

wth .

you already knew he said this shyt to me.
and wah damn you .
damn you for being like this to me.

damn you .

Never knew youre so weak when it comes to me.

Never knew youd do this to me .

Never.

Kayyy best !

two ex say i whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat,

some bitch or whatever not nice la what.

hah, end up one regretted.

and idk about you .

we'll see what you think now youve left.

see your life .

youre without me already. its your problem.

its not me. its you .

you cant take a lil bit frm me .

you never wanted me, right ?

i swallowed your words.

you lied. zulia, fuck .

got me worried. fuck .

thanks yuh .

lied like crazy, swallowed my feelings.

cant let go .

byeeeez ~
& i nvr wanna see you again .

GILER.

4:14 PM

I SWEAR RAYYAN MOHAMAD IS GILER TO THE MAX.
I HOPE YOU SEE THIS .
AND TAKE YOUR MEDICINE ASAP.

SERIOUS GILERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR .
:D

waitwait, your tm :|

oh yeah .

3:13 PM

yey yey yeyy tomorrow !
hahhahahaha.

i lurveeeeeee meeeee.
dont give a damn that you dump me :)

my heart racing fast.

nobody who called me a bitch gets the best of my, anymore.
hah ! yeahhhh , i knw im superwoman kay alwani cause i nvr cryyyyyy
when i got dump :P

kay, best. loveeee vanessa & amalia & alwani.

shopping tmr and chalet !
nyahahahaha.

but, i have to admit, i cried myself to sleep last night.
and only realise this morning, that, why shld i cry when i did nth wrong?
why shld i get hurt over and over again ?
why shld i be called some bitch or slut over and over again ?

woah , this is me.
fact.

im fictionous uh ?
face it, there's no one like me aye bby .

=D guess, faz is right.
hahah, i always knew im stubborn.

Promote

12:44 PM

:P promoting muaiiiiiiiii vids. HAHAHA.
bored lehhh.

Suria Hatiku .

11:19 AM

( i did that for YOU . today)

I feel so pathetic and fcking useless right now.
like who am i to you ?
some bitch ? bring it on. you wanna see the bitch ?
kay , stop it nadd. youve been through this before.
you can get through it , again .

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=196875980941&ref=mf

i joined that group, but for what ? knowing that special someone called me _ .
damn you .
you said HE was some fcker cause of saying all that to me.
well come on, look at yrself !

kay, forget it.
he doesnt even care. moving on ~
i think now ive learn how to move on , honestly. D:

i wish agil is back in sg right now :'(
i wish he'll tell me that HE's such a moron and etc, like he always does.
i wish he would tell me that i deserve better, like he always tell me.
i miss him. i always liked him for protecting me.
:/

( you know i wonder who the real girls in like those emotive photographs . nvm )

okay, really need agil right now.
that guy who nvr hurt me before(:

or maybe R ?
but he's awesomely busy -.-
so wtv.

ohoh ! faz ! he said im crazy to get back with him tht time ):
Faz : Kau dah giler ke giler !?
Me : heh. gilerr.
--

SO ! im heading to chalet sooon baby !
i loveeeeeeeeeeee.
hahah, chill my mind you know ?

and once again my plan to go out with you is ruined.
i hate you .............................. !

kay moving onnnnnnnnnnn,
manzzzzzz,

Tangled up in me - Skye Sweetnam :)

so much of my pretty posts for you.
woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,
how would you feel if your guy said your like a bitch ?
omg ! none of my friends EVEER said that of me .
damn you .
damn you .
i never said you were a bastard for treating me wrong.
damn . damn .

how could you ?
kan naj ? ):
heeeheeeee . the most ppl call me is insane.
=D and im proud of that. HEEEHEEE.
--

WOKE UP AT 9AM
LOL LOL LOL
AMAZING.
HAHAHA. CAUSE IM SO EXCITED.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

ps: highlight all my past posts, yeah hassan ? youll figure how many times youre on my mind.
im sucha sucker for love.

[edit] k best, tk jady gi nari :/
hate my annoying sis[/edit]

So bored.

Sunday, December 20, 2009, 8:41 PM

Me & BRO .

im so bored that i uploaded three videos on youtube.

heeeheee, just knew how xD on my own kayz :P

then did twoooooo.

hahahaha.

my youtube sucks. but like whatever manzzzz.

http://www.youtube.com/user/abroadunder

okay, then right, i played pc download game before that uh .

and like wtv. lol lol lol.

and see my fb .

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=2902833&op=1&o=global&view=global&subj=808909565&id=808909565

haha, pretty kayz.

k im done here yawww.

anywayanyway, someone so busy larh pls -.-

but nvm nvm .

tomorrow going chalet( never tell him :P tmr i will :D when i reach alr or unless he asks :D)

anyway anyway.

im so bored and lonely that im reading all his emails to mee.

gahgahgah

love love. heheheheheheheeh.

One of the MANYMANYMANY MAILS. HEEEHEEE.

I LIKE . I LIKE.

but he just doesnt do it like he used to anymore :/

nvm . goodnight, peeps !

untitled

4:22 PM

PLUSPLUS.

Saturday, December 19, 2009, 10:16 PM

I LOVE TODAY ALOT.

CAUSE I PRACTICALLY SPEND MY WHOLE DAY TALKING TO BOYF.

AND I MISS HIM TO THE CORE AND I HOPE HE SEES THIS. HAHAA.

I HOPE I CAN MEET HIM SOON AND I AM SO ADDICTED TO HIM

I WANNA HUG HIMMMMMMM AND SQUEEZE HIM TO DEATH. ( IM EVIL)

OKAY. IM HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY THAT I'M ALL HE'S THINKING ABOUT AND I KNOW HE WONT LEAVE ME AND I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM.

BUT I HATE IT WHEN HE TEASES ME -.-

read if you want to . HAHA.
cant wait to shop w the girls !
okay, byeee :D

& practically my whole week is booked !
O.O vicki wants shopping perhaps on monday ( but i shall negotiate to tues ) :P
tue & wed sch, perhaps out with VANS too . gahgahhh .
thurs w pri sch . fri w hmt.
gahhhhhhhhhh.

schoool schoool ! i love you !

Worn Out.

Friday, December 18, 2009, 10:26 PM

Yesterday had school. Did wet games, welldidnt actually do :P
but i got tanned-.- im serious.
nevermind. dont really care. i think.
well, going to school on the 22nd and 23.
and 24 going out with pri sch gals to ECP d:
kayyyyy !

and so yerp. im done here.
:) and i have no recital lessons for two weeks !

ps: i went to my grandma's house earlier today . k lol.

and he's back to being him ! yey !
i miss & love him alot ):

i cant wait for camp !

hahahahha. looking forward to torturing people and having fun with the wet games !

Glad the Games Committee did well on this (:

Andddd, please tell me i get nice food ! or elseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, i'll have to
smuggle chocolates :P

UH.

Thursday, December 17, 2009, 9:01 PM

According to greek mythology, humans were originally created with 4 arms, 4 legs and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves.

Please tell me why do i get replacements of you when youre away ?
like Syed talked to me when youre away.
then idk larhhhhhhhhhhhh..

hahaha, yey yan :P go online for me !
hahaha .love you kay ! xDDDDDDD.
dlm mimpi ! huahuahuahua.
*gives pat on myself for waking you up :P*

eeeeek. _ meet me ? gahhhh.

oh yeah , agil so sweet. hahahaha. kay shush.
sent me a text to say he was going off today in the early morning (:
and tomorrow's his bday. (:
14 finally ! haha. :D

8:48 PM

Haha, kay i decorated it awfully.

my sis did better, baked two :)

but she didnt decorateeeeeee ! she just put frosting on hers-.-

and she didnt even cook

k wtv.

ICE SKATING PHOTO SOON ?

This Heart That's Filled With Guilt.

7:17 PM

Every Girl Wants A Boy Like This..

• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in. ( well, if his cap counts . )
• give her one of your hoodies to wear so everyone knows shes yours. ( watch ? )
• leave her cute text/notes.(:
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• FORGIVE her for her MISTAKES. ( yey. )
• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop. -.-
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. ( you dont do that.. )
• let her fall asleep in your arms. ( i miss. )
• get her mad, then kiss her. ( wish you would )
• stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything ( hah . )
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she's sad, hang out with her. ( you dont... )
• let her know she's important. ( please.. )
• kiss her in the pouring rain. ( someone did that.. :/)
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved
someone before.

•and,when she runs up at you crying...the first thing you say is..."who's ass am i beating today?"

( you never said that to me, youre always saying im such a baby and such, and you never really cared when i say someone made me mad. and you know it hurts ? its like you dont care. you dont... you only care if YOU hurt me. but when someone else does, are you there? no . it'll only be about jealousy. ihy. )

Empty.

Well, now youve left this world of mine. I dont exist anymore. Look up in your dictionary, my name's gone.

What happened to everything? Every little pieces' left scattered . I feel like putting us on hold, whats the point of carrying on when youre just... busy . busy. busy. thank you . girls need attention, why cant you get that ? wait, cause you no longer come here.. doesnt matter, so used to it now.
Its been three days since i said, ily.

Two Is Better Than One

Wednesday, December 16, 2009, 11:04 PM

First thing, IHATEMYSISTER.
ANNOYING SIA. wish she's dead. im serious. walao.
--

k anyway, talking to agil.
lol. kinda miss him aye. :)
and its actually kinda nice , to you know. oh nvm .

okay, i just so think we drift apart and i no longer belong in your life.

cause i cant find a decent time w you and im just fed up.

i need some time alone so i can work thing out.

(k rhymes . haha )

k lah bye.
tkde mood nk lecture,
alaa, btw. you know my posts adeee space space means ade benda uh.
ceh, cam fhm.

im trying to be okay la. shut upz.

Sad Song?

10:34 PM

I asked for a sad song.
Fazreen made me lmao.
-.- cause he gave me this :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XgJ7mEtACs
-.-
----
and naj gave me a different answer.
type a sad song on youtube .
-.-

kay , i knw siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

so stressed.

--

but i found this :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmNMji-z2NA

ps : my handphone is weird, since last night, it doesnt tell me if i have any miscalls. o.o

Ice Skating.

9:29 PM

It was very fun.
Arrived at my aunt's house around 1215pm.
Then we all went out around 1pm.
With my aunt & uncle . 3 lil boys. 1 big boy. 2 big girls. 1 sister.
haha, k lol.
went separate rides with two different cars and were practically racing O.O
my uncle drives damn fast, and my lil cuzie was screaming "yah ! hahahah ! mak behind ! woo ! "
k lol, it was exhilarating !
haha.

Went to eat first at Tanjung Pagar.
and around 3pm we left.
Reached at 350 pm we went to Kallang Leisure Park, pretty . x33
and 5 yr old cuzz went to the toilet but peed on his underwear-.-
smart.

k nvm, so yeah . head off for Ice skating soon later.
ahaha, fun yeah !
helped the 3yr old skate, and my other cousins help the 5yr old.
eventually they gave up and sat outside playing idk what, without
no one looking after :P

k i didnt fell !
haha, yey ! but the rest did :P

after that went to drive through kfc & mcs.
and ate blablabla.
then to orchard blablabla

then went back to aunt's place at aronund 9 ? 8 ?
idk . and went back at 1130. sent off by uncle :)
pictures will be uploaded later.
--
Today went to my grandmother's house (paternal). (:
from 340pm - 730pm.
:)
i think.

ohkay.

tomorrow going to sch.
yeahs.
then im done, or maybe lunch w/ him ?
it depends.

i really dont exist in someone's life anymore.
haihs. nvm.

something's fishy, Rahm is suddenly so close to me...
i dont like all this change.

Girls Need Attention. ( Bold that ! )

Monday, December 14, 2009, 10:54 PM

Im so glad i have Fazreen & Najwan to entertain me !

Gosh, i miss FAZREEN ALOT.

GOT THAT ?!

I REALLY DO KAY.

im so bored.

k bye.

must sleep early.

this sucks, its like youre freaking busy, and im not in your life.

hell to it.

haiz.

gickr.com / clicknetwork.tv

i did it for you.

8:50 PM

Chocolate Cake.

Heeeeeh . I baked ! :D it was awesome, for the first time(as far as i can remember)

my mum baked ! hahaha, my dad tagged along,sister was "on leave" so she settled down

at the computer-.- god, couch potato much ?

Well anyway, its v v v v nice. :D

haha, i did extras, anyone wants?

well, not exactly extras, (read title)

So yeah , pretty much hurts. but, what to do ?

Just drown myself in tears. boo.

Pictures will be up soon, then you have apetite. hehe.

Bestf just broke up. 20months tau, * !

why la? k nvm, as long as youre happy with it, im happy

for you kay * ?

(: and i'll always be here for you. like always.

Tomorrow going ice skating with cousins, and naj just invited me

to school tomorrow, damn. i would prefer going to sch leh ! (so i

can poison everyone with my cake. muahahaha) but last minute la he ):

Anyways, ive been writing alot of quotes, and stuff.

(: Sucha new goody me. heeeeheeee.

And next yr onwards (hopefully) my religious class is on Sunday Morning.

:D i bet none of you would be awake, hahahaha.

okay, im done.

im really brokenhearted. haihs.

decorated my pretty muffins, and oh well.

i shall stop bragging about it. (:

ps : najwan, this time the cake is not as white as me, its kinda as black as amalia. hehe. :D

Disappointing.

Sunday, December 13, 2009, 10:56 PM

if you want to.

~~I Pretty much got the hang of everything.~~

~~your day to day life.~~

~~your normal routines, whatcha gonna do, things you'll say,~~

~~a future thats different from everything you expect it to be.~~

pretty much got used to it.
so yeah, nothing matters anymore.

~~no more getting hurt, no more cuts, no more bruises .~~

~~because ive predicted all these things.~~

~~and these things have always been the reason for the wounds.~~

~~practically, who cares right?~~

~~its normal to get from you.~~

~~dont really mind.~~

~~honestly i understand.~~

~~just gets me on the nerve sometimes.~~

~~well, live your life.~~

~~i doubt i was ever a part of it anyway.~~

*smiles widely*

hmm, chatted with Wawan for awhile.
haha.
(....)

ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
hahah...att?
hehe
sorry eh
im a fast guy
hehe
A complete Nut- Case. says:
ahha, yeahhhhhhhhh. attached. (:
ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
ouhk....mataer nama siapa?
hansem?
skolah mana ah?
matrep?
A complete Nut- Case. says:
chill ah. hahah. matrep semua tk main . haha
ade la . {:
ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
hahah...ouhk..okok
kental pe mataer u?
A complete Nut- Case. says:
haha, asl lak ? haha. as if you knw liddat. no la. :}
ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
hahah
abe gangster eh mataer u?
hahah...
A complete Nut- Case. says:
haha. he ~~loser~~ la. haha.
ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
nama mataer u apa ah?
A complete Nut- Case. says:
watcha doing ?
eh skiip topic la
haha.
ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
hahah...why?
chat lah
apa lagi...
haha
A complete Nut- Case. says:
haha okayy. case tk de kerja.
ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
mataer u tk marah klau u bbual ngn laki lain?
ok
hey...u look beautiful
mcm puteri kayangan
A complete Nut- Case. says:
haha. he's used to it. haha. mcm faham.
ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
haha
hahah...ok
A complete Nut- Case. says:
(:
ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
mataer u gangster eh?
i takut esok lusa gang dia shoot i pe
haha
bdk2 skrng smuanya mcm2
perangai
haha . . .
A complete Nut- Case. says:
hahah ! dia eh ? perangai memang(:
ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
hahah...ah..da sah gangster
haha . . .
A complete Nut- Case. says:
haha, yeah . tryna change him
but whatever.
(:
next yr taking what subj combi ?
ridhuan_wawan@hotmail.com says:
asl?dia slalu buat u marah eh?
ouhk...subj eh?i pun tk tau lah...i main tikam tikam je
haha . . .
pass tk pass,sama juga...
ala...senang je lah

something to smile about when someone talks about and ask about you. :)

Ginormous

9:08 PM

Gigantic + Enormous :D
ive been gorging myself to ALOT of food (emphasis on ALOT)
okay, yeah whatever.

meeting again, sian.

anyway, i feel like being poetic.
Here goes me.

"Be with someone who knows what they have when they have you."
Unknown
"Too many guys think I’m a concept, or I complete them, or I’m gonna make them alive. But I’m just a fucked-up girl who’s lookin’ for my own peace of mind; don’t assign me yours."
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

"Some people show off their beauty because they want the world to see it.
Others hide their beauty, because they want the world to see something else."
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants

No time for me.

5:14 PM

Well first and foremost,
I had a pretty much a very very short conversation with Amira (emphasis on very)
Glad she's enjoying her holiday(:

Secondly, i dreamt of SHAIK . O.O LIKE OMG.
and idk who else laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, but it was like an affair thing.
like omg, why am i having these kinds of dreaming !?
tht time on friday or thurs i dreamt of ___ + ____
it sucks please? top secret dream ! okay, NIGHTMARE,
come on man . only J knws the first dream.
gosh , it sucks.

okay nvermind.
helped mum cook today. *smiles widely*
cause my grandmother came over. hehehehe.

okayyyyy, well tomorrow might bake. d:
no one's poisoned , YET so far.
heheheheheh.

hhmmmmmmmmm.
i shall go now.

oh yeah, yesterday got my results.
usual scores ever since forever.
bleah .
(:

but im so glad myyyyyy
Al Quran i got 29/30
pfft.

okay. tc.
someone's such an ass went offline before 5pm.
sucker, i hate him la.
nvm, used to him being like this. yerpyerp.
i think im gnna go off soon,
just went online for him, yeah well. too bad for me.
hah.
signing out at 6pm !
youve got 40mins ferrrrrrrrrrr me . hehe.
no worries bbies ! hahaha, esp najwan. i might be available in 4 more hours :D

Im done.

Saturday, December 12, 2009, 8:28 PM

Just completed editing someone's blog(:
Pretty much not satisfied as usual.
haha.

for the first time im crapping with Vanny Vroom Vroom.
heehehhe.
okay, im so bored.

Yesterday after reciting theee Quran went to Tamp with er, 7 other ppl
and for the first time we didnt take carrrrrrrrrrr.
omggggggggggg.
it feels weird. haha.
k anyway. from 430-830 we came back.
went to my grandma's house and went back at 1015 :D

so yeah .
hmmmmm.
i want...

to sum it up, its wallets like from here. http://www.musthaveone.co.nz/dpages/d2_wallets_women.html

get me okay ?

if not, get me this.

okay, i suppose, enough of Puma ? hehe.

well anyway, im like searching for tutors now, lmao.
im so bored. and i need science tutor anws :)
so signing off !

Nadhirawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr xxx.

cant wait for school, study hard , get good job !
then MONEYYYYY MANZ.

oh yeah, ive started reading "THE CRUCIBLE"
tell you the truth, its complicated manzzzzz.
gets me dizzy . o.o

oh, amira, why you like that post ?
hahah.

i like skipping stuff. :P

Thursday, December 10, 2009, 10:40 PM

well, naj would know what i mean yeh ?
haha, i expected the waterbombs already, so ape lagi ?
CABUT ahhh ! hahaha, you plan to sabo me whaaaaaaaaat.
so yeh, better be safe then WET !
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
later cannot hug x.
):

--
i have lived less than 12 hours without amira and sab
and i actually miss amira ):
no one in msn to talk to for TEN DAYS !!!!!!!!
AHHH, siao.
k nvm D:

ten days only whatttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.
haha, right right?

k nvm.

--

walao i fat sia. gain weight like one kind.
cannot eat alrrr siaaaaaaaa.
nw like so tempted w eggsssssssssssssss.
ahhhh, cannot tahan.
so people, dont talk about food to me !
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
i wish there's no food at home. and no chocolate.
im fatttttttttttttt .
k obsessed.

--

sooo anyway,
went to school today . woke up at 730am after
7 snoozes of 3 mins :P
and then went off at 903am.
and missed the bus at 908am.
so yerp. sad case
and bus came at 923am.
and met up with Gloria at bus stop at 947am.
:D

and then head off to schhh !
hahah, k lol :P

so yerps. it was uhhhhhhhhhhhhh, fruitful uh .
and then im so excited for civilization game, yey !
hahaha, but i become clan leader tk fun eh, i hate naj for giving me this position-.-

but nevertheless, iwould "gamble" and help the thieves and all.
hahaha, i want torture them, in jail yknw !
k nvm :P

we'll just see how.
hahahah.
--

k siao.
then head home at 1pm after eating w nas and x
was like disappointed with SOMEONE .
k -.-
btw, met up w Rahman sadly siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa w darwis, when i with someoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
walao. unlucky. then they steal my fries ):

k nvm.
and then then then met faz. he look smaller than me = im fat.
):

anyway, head home and met up with Rayyan coincidentally w his friend !
he going KL then nvr tell me when we saw each other-.-
funnnnnnnnnnnnnnn per.
k nvm, told him get me smth anyway :P
i knw, no shame. hahahah. bestf what, neighbours some more, so heck care. heheheheh
--

so anw, head home. slept at 310pm after sending a text to SOMEONE at 305 pm
and DIDNT receive any replies
woke up at 350pm, ate ( told u im fat!) okay, and TRIED to sleep again at 410pm
and FAILED. but i got up at 5pm :D

--

so anw, bye :P
oh yeah..
anw, now talking to long lost friendddddd hahaha, agil. k lol. bye.

6:56 PM) - [ Fυиκyвєат: eh mondae aku cerite kn kt rayyan pasal ashraf abe dier pun tk happie nagn ashraf

:D

me lovey themmy.

i posted that in one of my other blogs last march(:
i miss talking to rafi hafiz.
wonder why we have to end up this way, wish i can start over.
butttt, its okay. i suppose.
let him get over .

My great friends(:

Wednesday, December 9, 2009, 10:15 PM

some of the pictures take.

Attention : Alwani's hair heeeeeeeeeeh.

went to meet up w em at mcs at around 1140 w amira and close to noon w sab, alwani? idk :D

but before that met up with x at 11am around there.

left mcs at 1pm ? went library and tamp for awhile

so yeah, four of us went to city hall at 120pm ? O.o

:D:D:D:D:D

and walked to Singapore Flyer at 150pm . Long Journey.

Stopped by Marina Barage cause it raind :D

then we ate there.

i lurve the sambal of the nasi lemak ! heeeheeee.

and we blowed bubbles :P

around 300 we left? idk .

then walked there, and we took pichaaaas !

hahaha, k awesome.

went off at 4 ?

then reached pasir ris at 430?

I LOST TRACK OF TIME. HAHAHAH.

me and alwani went off at 5pm . home baby !

hahaha. after her bus , my bus. awesome.

reached home at 530 :D

now im missing bby .

k byeee !

will miss AMIRA and SABRINA !

ps : i am worried for alwani.

Nonsense

Tuesday, December 8, 2009, 4:06 PM

end-ehh-jay-doubleu-ehh-end! ✌ says:
make the awesome people group

A complete Nut- Case. says:
hahah really ?
siape seh nk join.

end-ehh-jay-doubleu-ehh-end! ✌ says:
but if like that only i can join

and i cant believe ive go ta friend like him-.-
well anyway, im really alright right now.

and i cant wait to go out w the lovelies.
picnic perhaps?
(:

HIPPIE.
HAHA, IM SO HYPER AND CRAZY EVENTHO I ER YOU KNOW
BUT YEAH
HAHAHAHAHA.
I ROCK.

listen. read.

"Cold Case Love"

On my roof

Dark and I'm burning a rose

I don't need proof

I'm torn apart & you know

What you did to me was a crime

Cold Case Love

And I let you reach me one more time

But that's enough

Your love was breaking the law

But I needed a witness

So pick me up when it's over

It don't make any difference

Will it ever be solved

Or am I taking the fall

Truth was there all along

Tell me how did we miss it

We opened up a cold case love

And it got the best of us

And now prints, pictures & white outlines

Are all that's left at the scene of a crime

Of a cold case love

Should've investigated

But love blinded eyes

Couldn't see (no)

And then I tried to cage it

But your love ain't the kind you can keep

Release me now cause I did my time

Of this cold case love

My heart's no longer cold & confined

I've had enough

Your love was breaking the law

But I needed a witness

So pick me up when it's over

It don't make any difference

Will it ever be solved

Or am I taking the fall

Truth was there all along

Tell me how did we miss it

We opened up a cold case love

And it got the best of us

And now prints, pictures & white outlines

Are all that's left at the scene of a crime

Of a cold case love

We lost our way

Took this too far

Now I'll never find the pieces of my heart

We've lost enough

Looking for a truth

That was here all along

Cold case love

And it got the best of us

and now prints, pictures & white outlines

Are all that's left at the scene of a crime

Of a cold case love

We opened up a cold case love

And it got the best of us

and now prints, pictures & white outlines

Are all that's left at the scene of a crime

Of a cold case love

i decided to go old (: