Told you so

First and foremost,
thanks Vanessa & Sharonna for the advance bday gifts! (:
and also, Fazreen and shaik for the sweet card!
Totally unexpected from you guys.
and the card is pretty ^^

Secondly, thank you guys for wishing me.
haha, due to the balloon :)
And Mr Osman had to comment. Damn pai seyh please.

Greatest apology to Ibrahim for not meeting him just now.
i was already at bus stop x:
And, he was the first to wish that didnt give me gifts. :D
haha, shock sia, the way he did. k nvm.

And followed by other people which includes.
er, Yina! Fann! Safiya! er, James. amalia. and whoever.
hahaha.

;) chia dint so annoying!!!!

---

Anyway, past few days, ive learnt science. :D
and also,
HOW TO MAKE A GOOD PAPER AIRPLANES.
hahahaha!
been doing that in class xD
funnn!

today played snap and uno with the phamplets givent out with amalia
xD hahaha. my idea!
funnn siaaaa!
:D

---

i went home early today.
yey!
k bye.
i think.
nothing to update.

weeeeee.

*SHIT FNN!

wish you were here,
the only wish, to see you happy.
I never ever,wanna see you this way.
How i wish youd be here.

I love you, i cant stop.
im trying, please understand.

Its so hard.
You said you'd spend my special day with me.
Guess its gone.

But im fortunate enough to spend your special day with you.

I'll never forget.
I'll never forget you.

And as promised, i'll stay faithful to you.

I swore, i said so.
Eventhough you scream/scold/curse me the worst stuffs.

I dont care.

Please, take me back one day.
One day.

I know you dont care

Whyd you left without reasons?

Just, let him go.

*waiting- ne yo.
that was for me, from you.
now, its from me to you.
please.

i cried to sleep yesterday.
11months gone.
4 months of silence

Labels: Where's your promise now?

bleah

5:58 PM

i decided to be back on classic. nvm. :)
blogskin-ing!

hehu.

3:32 PM

im a good girl to go home early today :D

& thanks all for the wishes and gifts! :)
will be back later.

Pretty much, mad.

Thursday, July 30, 2009, 8:35 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CUnx2bHxG3w
Do not ask me why its random. tyvm.

Yang terindah, terukir di bibirmu
(That beautifully crafted smile of yours)
Tak pernah ku lihat senyummu sebegitu
(Is none that ive seen before)
Pudarkah sudah cinta yang ku beri
(Has the love that ive given you faded)
Berwarna warni segala, yang dijanjikan ia
(All gone with the promised colors of it)

Usah biarku bersendirian
(Dont leave me alone)
Usah biar hatimu ditawan
(Dont let your heart captured)
Usah biar diriku disini, seorang menunggu tanpa teman
(Dont leave me here waiting alone)
Usah lepas genggaman tanganmu
(Dont let go of your hands)
Usah biar semua berlalu
(Dont let it all go away)
Usah terlupa perasaan hati, pertama kali kita bertemu
(Dont ever forget the first feelings we had when we first met)
Usah lepaskan
(Dont Let Go)

Tak mudahku melupa segala yang berlaku
(Its not easy for me to forget the things that had happened)
Ku ingin selalu bersamamu
(I wanna be with you forever)

*Repeat Chorus

Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya
(I dont care what the reasons are)
Engkau dan dia harus bersama
(You and her have to be together)
Mendungnya langit bila berkata
(The dark sky is telling us)
Kita patutnya masih bercinta
(We should be still in love)

Usah lepaskan
(Dont Let Go)

-------------------------

That song can make me cry 24/7 and i wont stop.
I cant.
sigh.
this song. just er , hurts.
k whatever.

moving on,
school was okay.
people are insane.
im not a human, therefore, im not insane. :)

--

haiz. dont know la.
i think this year my bday's gonna be the worst?
lolz.
cause got alot of probs.
and im feeling so down nowadays.
nyahahah.

*im making myself happy these days *

ah, whatever.
--

Today went to nasuha's house after doing work with sab in school(:

then yeah. the end.
lols.

& i should seriously stop listening to that song .

---

AHHH. FISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
GO DIE LAAAA.
):

---

Im sick of it. im tired of it.
i cant stop anymore.
i cant stop thinking of you.
ive had enough!
im worried. im worried sick about you!
and i dont care what you think/what they think anymore!
i want you to be okay!
i wanna know what happened!
because, i do know why!
i wanna be back... in your life..
--

i just do. :'(
i dont care whatever shit is going on.
i dont care whoever is reading this.
i type what i feel. i do what i feel like.
but i have limits.

i cant.
i cant be there.
i want to.
but i cant anymore.
i cant bare.
i cant bare to see you that way.

it makes me feel down.
i dont know .
i dont think anyone would understand how i feel.
but i have to let it out.

please, please let me see your smile and hear laugh again,
not those pretends.
even if its not for me/ because of me.

i want you to be okay.

i love you.
and i cant stop.
and i cant do anything.
:/

no words, can explain these thoughts.
these emotions. nothing.

i wanna feel you.
feel you once again.
like how i did.
i wanna go through it all with you.
* thunder- boys like girls * remember?

silly arent i?
you wont even reach here. hah.
im such a loser!

---

i miss eugene kuan.
i cant believe he put my special day on his phone.
:0 i feel so .. touched.
saturday suppose to meet him, ernest and etc..
but i have class ):

---

tomorrow going out with jannah and maira for awhile.
mmiss them alot!
x:

--

mad at blogger.
i cant upload any pictures.
fish!

--

well yeah.
why'd you have to go?
i want to stick with you forever.
You told me youd never let me go..
but you lied. why?

the bruise hurts.
please, where's the explanation?
argh!

why why why?!

& if you guys think this is sudden.
its not, i just didnt feel like venting out any emotions
the past few days.
so sick, and tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

k, i think i need a chill pill
as Ms Swan would say it.

Can you dont be me ____ ?
please.......

ah, shut upzxzsxzsxzsxzs nadhirah!
get over it!

oh and did i tell you?
my morning ruined by some person.
ergh , hate him!!!!

k , back to the story.
i tried to show you i was strong,
i tried to be friendly.
i tried so hard to get over it.
but youre not cooperating!

i tried.

but seeing you this way nowadays,
it hurts.
hurts me deep.
i know, i know whats wrong.
so why cant you share....

mr DK ! please..

the more youre like this, the more i cant bare
to let you go.
i know, i know you need me by your side.
its obvious.
because now, the way you look at me, its different.
its different then those pasts.
its like youre begging, and wanting something from me.
i know you look away when i look your way.
i know you watch me go.
i know, love.
im not blind. i can feel.

oh my gosh, why do i have to know you so well!

--

anyway, i did half of a lyric already (:
might post it one day if i remember :D
--

i feel like leaving the world.
im such a loser, idiot, sucker!

ps; goodluck to rayyan and ariffin!
both fighting against each other for the semi-finals in the nationals!
i dont know who to side with ! :O
guess what? ariffin is rayyan's uncle.
but both same age. :D

hehe. luvvv.

Labels: ♥ nonsense, crap, shit

Damn SLEEP!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009, 11:05 PM

Er, class was torture. Amalia gone crazy so dramatic sing
"kepadaNYA" -.- me and liina cannot stop laughing!
Eventually liina got infected -.- sing row row row a boat!
And Sab with jack and jill.

Pity me, stuck in the middle an laughing
Til my stomach hurts! Haha.

And hmt ended early :o

So yeah.
Working hard on sciences!

~ going through the days, without
You!

Oh yeah, helped someone
Break up today -.-
She so mean! Oh well, psycho! And I did warn her!!

I AM CURRENTLY

Tuesday, July 28, 2009, 10:56 PM

OH SHIT SIA.
I WAS TYPING SO LONG. FISH!
THEN IT GOT DELETED :@
---

OVERALL SCHOOLS'OKAY.
PLAYED VOLLEYBALL.

PAID ATTENTION DURING PHYSICS!

IM SO UNHAPPY I DIDNT GET A MATHS FOR STREAMING
STUPID SCIENCE!
BUCKKK UPPP!

K THEN WHAT?
YEAH WHATEVER!

PISSED OFF WITH SOMEONE.

ANYWAY, WENT TO NASUHA'S HOUSE AFTER SCHOOL,
AFTER 230, WHEN WE FOUND OUT NO DRAMA.
ZZZ.

WENT HOME AT 515.

KKK. WHATEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
NO MOOD.

PLUS I JUST WOKE UP.
#%@%~$^/#%*!
--

tomorrow hmt.
going home from temasek sec.
haizzzzzzzzzzzzz.

huhu

Monday, July 27, 2009, 7:51 PM

guess whatttt?
like seriously.

--

nothing!
im so lame.

i know -.-!

anyway, im so tired of blogging, like 3 years alr?
so sianzzzz.

--

oh and i edited my blogskins, to basisc.
hahaha, so lazy change.
so gonna move to xanga, i think.

and yey! 6 more dayyys.

--

oh and seriously, i love being single.
wooots.
--

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

my birthday wish uh?
- NEW EAR PIECE, SERIOUSLY.
- CHOCOLATES.
- THAT NECKLACE ^^
- THAT RING ^^^

HAHAHAH.
k, muka tk tau malu.
shuuushhh.

oh and i want all my friendships to be okay. ;D

and as ikhsan would say, WHATEVER!

:B

tccccc.

and school's so boring, cause amalina nvr come.
and addition to that, everyone in class HAD to eat infront of me.
just cause im fasting --.--

thanks eh.

--

hmt, was like so lalala.
cause teacher never comme. ttoooot.
hahah.

on the way home, was damn siannnnz.
and C-O-L-D!
REALLLY. LIKE WTH.

--
theoneuwillneverforget@bs
yet-confusing@bs.
millionsofsecre@bs
oooo, and lots more.
omfg. i had a lot of blogs o.o
k, siao.

adiozzzzz.

Anonymous

Sunday, July 26, 2009, 7:44 PM

"I AM NOT INTERESTED IN ANY GUYS."
TY.

--
(: MOVING ON.
I AM ZOOOMING OFF TO XANGA SOON.

Uh huh.

Saturday, July 25, 2009, 12:32 PM

Last wednesday, went out with my mum and sister.
and bought a lot of stuff.
---

My saturday morning is officially ruined.
fish!
--

Today was suppose to watch NDP preview,
but i ended up refusing to go because i find religious class better.
:D

--

& sorry, its officially over, for me.
and you.
bye.
--

nyahahahahhaahahah.
guess what?

:P

A false pretense.

Friday, July 24, 2009, 4:50 PM

Im continueing with yesterday's life.
lolz.

first and for most, im agreeing to munief & naafiu's pm.
"so sad, ppl change wid time.. lost so many friends nd still loosing"
"life is too short to waste time hating anyone"

--

Well yesterday, had prefect meeting after school for bbq today.
which i am not able to attend (:

then, after that, headed of to classroom and meet sabrina to collect the shirts.

When we reached e!hub, found out, the shirts only coming in later, in the night.
And, we had to walk to there, sweating!
Well anyways, the guys came over.. haha, expecting for the shirt. D:

--

The person says he'll bring it over to school today morning,
BUT HE LIED! ROAR.
haha.
--

We headed off, and sent Korrine home! :D
Afterwards, me and Sab, went to Elias Mall.
And she showed me people's house (-.-"|)
haha, oh well. '

Okay, then met Hadi.

Afterwards, just hung around there.
And headed home at 530pm?

Met RAYYYYANNNNNNN! ;DDD
at aout 6pm?
Then slack around and talk to him. till like
630? no idea.

haha, had hell lotsxzsxzs of crapping with him about the past!
i wonder how come he remembers things i dont.

like, i threw a paper, he passed down across the class during mother tongue class.
and me, crumpling it, and throw at his face.
:O

im mean. hehehe.
but anyway, he got his revenge yesterday -.-

luvvvzzzz.

---

Today morning, sucks.

I blowed my hair.
and as soon as i walked out of house, it started raining heavily.
-.-
so obviously, it got wet.

i was already feeling uncomfortable in the bus
to worsen things, ARMS and J-Man, was in the bus.
i was like. WTFISHHHHH.
j was like DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF ME . -.-
and arms was like at the door?!
wtfish!

but i didnt gave them a smile.
i frowned, for various reasons.
i know arms was watching me walk off past him
either shock/guilt/whatever
i dont know.
whatever.

Adding up to that, i had to wait for alwani.
in the rain!
and i was already feeling damn cold!

so jyeah.
--

Had maths in computer lab.
And art in class which, we LITERALLY slacked.
recess was boring.
Then, had mt, which was, a total bore!
followed by free period.
slacked!

--

and i hate james for not giving me chocolates-.-
urghhhhh!

and thank shaik for cutting james' badminton's strings :P
--

Okay, so yeah. nothing more?
oh , and as usual.
in class they throw paper balls-.-
and also hit me with badminton rackets.

damn they all!
--

anyway, yeah.
the end.
--

after school went to sharonna's house
:D watch the dog and etc.
haha.

then we went to loyang point.
we= alwani, sharonna and benjamin!

so uh huh.
--

i went home after eating lunch with them at mcs. :D

--

okay, uh. what ?

oh yeah.
i stink. now.
haizz.
--

LIVERPOOL IS IN SINGAPOREEEE.
WOOOOTS. well 2-4 just now :/
should have gone.
hehehe.

---

Gosh, im missing hamdan alot alot alot.
:/
erghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i wanna go out with him again for the third time! ;/
--

Amalia says im simple minded?
as in, when it comes to make me feel happy.
little things just do, like a simple touch.
hah, yeah true.

--

& im not manja kays.

and mr fong, im always crazy.
you dont need to ask the class -.-

--

oh ya, free period we dresssed up syahmi!
me no have the picture.
then we took class photo :D

--

toodles!
hope the prefects are having funnn now! til 9pm
as we have planned the activities :D

Blisters

Thursday, July 23, 2009, 9:25 PM

Well, thanks to sab,hadi (partially) and rayyan.
Read title.

Well anyway I'm so tired now.
Elaborate tomorrow!

I slapped * today:p

Butbut, nveemind:/
Onlyknow how to disturb me la yan!

And thanks for showing me your "sexy" legs-.-
So tak perlu! Haha

I'm honoured you show me only kay?

Obscene!!! Haha.
I'll visit you everyday la -.- (:

Wednesday, July 22, 2009, 10:09 PM

School was super great.

Stars/Pe/Fn/Cme

NO TEACHERS FOR ANY OF THE LESSONS!
HELL FUNNZXZSXSZX.

except cme.
got tortured by amalia & amalina
funn uhh?
and james also.
then the guys just watch and laugh at me.
funny!
-.- hate youu!

Amazingly, WAI KIT, MONK.
LAUGHED AT ME TOO.
GOSH.
--.--

anyway, james' so awesome.
hahaha. not! :P

--

and Jingshen wrote his and james name on my piece of paper
that has the title"my sayangs"
-.- haha! dream onn! :P

--

okay,nothing much to say.
--

pissed no one is free tomorrow.

--

im not feeling okay.
you know why?

BECAUSE OF ALL THE BGR.

like, everyone's not okay because of that,
and i feel that way too.
then they ask me for opinions.

i really dont know!

i really hope theyre okay.
- ariffin.
- syuhada.
- amalina
- sabrina.

:) cheer up aites.
im feeling dowwwwnnnn.

--

im actually crying because of them, and life.

haizzz.

---

why why why?
:/ everybodys' breaking up.

thank god, i have the maldives to cheer me up :/
--

Labels: Im not okay, so tell me why i have to lie.

Almost/

Tuesday, July 21, 2009, 9:22 PM

I miss alot of people.
--

So yeah.
start off with a good day.
and i really dont care.
haha.

--

after school slacked, and i so dont care.
haha.

then met my cousin and friends whoom i know.
but didnt hang out with em.
im a good girl!:D

--

now my cousin no mood.
so sad seyhhh!
):
--

luvvvv luvvvv.
):
--

everyone's complaining about their fathers to me-.-
haha. k its okay.
---

weee, i i i i i
want nobody but you! ;D

Happy things!

Monday, July 20, 2009, 7:53 PM

I shall start off with happy things!
:DDDDDDDD

Went to school with Alwani. uh huh.
And then, i was happy cause i have no idea.
--
So during prefect duty i just keep smiling
to Gershwin and he just gives me the quizzical look.
hahahaha. funn funn!
then we eventually laugh :P
--

Then, had mt.
lame.
:P
I vieweeed AREEN'S PHOTO!
hehehe. like girl ehh!
:DDD
--

Recess, uh. okay la.

--

English.
okay also.
did stupid skiit. :P
--

Maths
was amazingly paying attention!
*clap hands for me!!!!
hahha.

--

I hum.
BORE.
oh well, i paid attention! ^^
--

After school, headed of to hmt
after buying double chocolate frappe at mcd
with nasuha, alwani, amira! :)

reminds me of my first time buying it withhh ^^
--

HMT was boring, cause my clique didnt come ):
dk what happened.
but did work.
and oh-m-gee, i totally hate the sec 1s!
BIMBO MUCH?
so noizyyyyyyy.
--

Headed home while cheering DEENA SABBBB.
;)

--

AND I STALKED IKHSAN HOME TODAY
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH. JOKING.

BUS 228, WENT DOWN BEFORE 738PM
WITH A GUY WEARING WHITE SHIRT.
HE WORE MAROON.
hahahahhaha. im smart. :P

confirm he ask alot of question after this xD

--

so jyeah.
went home, fazreen texted.

and RAYYAN TOOO!
--

:)
i miss my beloved bestfriend aka my ex boyfriend!
:DDD the only one who knows everything without
me telling.
i miss him!!!!!'

alrights, so basically.
i stared at him the whole evening
and watched him play with his small cousins.
:D and them making noises and laughing.

and i didnt know Fi was there. (:
So yeah, i was basically watching them.
and i miss the old fun times :/

Guess what?
EVERYTHING'S OKAY ALREADY!
im back with my SUPER BOYFRIEND & FERRIS WHEEL!
(:

and im back again with RAYYYANNN!
(bestf) so jyeahhhh!
hehehe, and he's gonna teach me the steps
on how to communicate with Fi!

---

I think im gonna watch movie with them.
Havent been spending time with them for ages!
D:

--

Its usually the three of us anyway.
Got lecture & scolded by rayyan cause never contact em.
haha.

---

NAZI KSIAU.
i shall call my ex(agil) that.
since he told me too :P
--
hehehe.
i luvvvvvvv you guyyyyz!
--

& yan actually knows my probs with fi :o
ty ty.
:DDDD
i'll be understanding with him now. :)
--

and some pissed off news!

FOR SOMEONE.
I FCKING DONT CARE ALREADY LUHHH.

I TRIED ALREADY LA.
YOU THINK FUNNY AH?
I TRY THEN YOU GIVE ME THE WHAT FACE UH.
FUN AH?

THEN IM AT THE BACK.
WATCH YOU LAUGH WITH N AND A
THINK TAK SAKIT KAN HATI EH?

I TRY TALK, AND THEN MACAM ADE WALL GITUK.
KELAKAR PE?
DAH UH, STOP IT EHK.

IM TIRED OF FIGHTING WITH ANYONE AH.
BAIK2 AKU TKDE PROB KAU NK START ALIK.

ABEH ADE HATI NK TUDUH KITORANG MARAH PAT KAU.

PLEASE LA EHK.
WE TRIED LA.
SIAPE YG TK NK BBUAL?

YOU KNOW OR NOT .
ITS PAIN OKAY?
TENGOK KAU HAPPYHAPPY KETAWA NGAN DIORANG
ABEH AKU YG NK BBUAL NGAN KAU PUN MACAM BBUAL NGAN DINDING AH!

SO WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I WANNA TALK TO YOU
ANYMORE AFTER THAT?
GI JALAN AH.
KAU TKK BBUAL NGAN AKU THEN MENGARUT.

I TRY OKAY.
LIKE HELL YEAH I DID.

TERIMA KASIH JE LAH WITH YOUR
"FRIENDSHIP" YANG LANGSUNG TK IKHLAS EHK.
---

anyway, i loveeeee no idea *o.o*

--

im bullying my cuzzie!
hear's what happened when we were young
Him: *Crying , goes to my mum*
Mum: Eh, why you cry?
Him : Cik Enah, Cik enah *crying* Nadhirah dont wanna friend me. ):
--
HAHAHA. AND HE'S ELDER THAN ME FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
but oh well.

now we are close again :DDD

---

ciaooooooz.

& cheer up sharonna! :D

hehe.

Sunday, July 19, 2009, 9:36 PM

FOURTEEN MORE DAYS
TO
MY FOURTEEN YEARS!
and and and,
im so happpy!

hehehehe.
tctc.
k what the hell.
i luvvv youuuuuu.

Dont know what to post

Saturday, July 18, 2009, 10:28 PM

Bye.

cry cry and cry.

Bye.

Haiz.

So yeah.

Friday, July 17, 2009, 5:19 PM

Ive officially had enough of life.
And im privating my blog soon,
where no one is allowed to visit.
Only Afiqah N.
:/

Done enough.
I cant take it anymore.
Really.

Did four slashings today.
And all actually bled!!!!(:

So yeah, ty to S' pen knife.
---

STARS was so lame.
Followed by Maths.
And English
and physics.

didnt focus or bother anymore.
slit slit slit! ";D
its not mad.
pain at first, the hand
felt numb. but got used to it afterwards. so yeah.
--

Went CP with amalina, amalia, syafiqah and alwani.
lolz.
okehh luh.

Met KY , AGAIN!
followed by this faiz! ahahahah.
which we cant stop teasing/embarassing amalia.
K, at bonquet then amalia's friend was there.
so, amalina PURPOSELY talk so loud.

Amalia eating.
We, supporting Amalina to do.
Amalina: Eh ko tak jumpe FAIZ?!
We all laughed & amalia almost choke.
Amalina: Eh, besok birthday FAIZ TAU! tk beli present?!
And the guys there turned to us.
Funny sia. hahahaha.
they so slow.
k anyways, whatever.
so jyeah.
then we eventually somehow made friends with amalia's friend. (:

& kept meeting them and keep waving. lolz!
----
Afterwards, met alwani's friend.
Haikel?
So jyeah. they just say about cannot recognise
and whatever crap.
hah.
and i was like a lamp post? :D

---
Then , i met my beloved. :D
Youre cute as always.
God, i felt stupid.
miss youzxzsxz.
why is it this past few days been seeing him alot?
sheeesh.

Hope to see you again. (:

And yes alwani, i cant stop trembling
everytime i see him.
Im not over him ;DDD
My only.
LALALA.

---
Oh, and in the bus was superrr nonsense sia.
what the hell.
do the kissing thingy sound?
ergh.
so i blast my music.
---

bye. maybe do more slashing at night.
hah.
--

and also, you dont wanna know what i did in class tht no one knew.
(:
ciaoz.
-

This blog will be private by the time i get home tomorrow
at 8pm.
;)

You can go to archives and read previous posts.
ty.
bye.
---
And i actually tag only one person this past few days.
i dont tag people.
or do i visit blogz.
dont ask me why i tagged that person's blog
but anw, not like the person knows or cares.
so yeah.

Yeah, the person dont care.
so yeah.
WHY AM I BOTHERED TO TAG HER?!?!!

IM DYING.
NO, WELL OKAY.
SO BYE!
IM NOT TAGGING ANYONE!
HAH. KNOWING LIKE THE PERSON REMOVED?
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH.

NADHIRAH SO DUMB SIAAAA!!!!
-im laughing not cause its funny.-

Haha.. no one knows..

--

JAMES OWEE ME MC CHICKEN!
heheh, he'll say he'll buy on monday ^^
(actually he doesnt owe me. i owe him . haha)
yey!

Labels: As always, you're cute. (:

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Thursday, July 16, 2009, 9:51 PM

Just need to get back to my senses.
Come on nadd!
erghhhhhhhh.

Lost.

8:48 PM

One very bestestfriend.
One guy.
Two close friends.
One clique.

Somehow, i dont know.
I miss R alot.
I mean, he have always been there for me.
But, i just lost him.
Stupid me.
Wait, not just. 3 months ago?
And i guess i was never there for him.
So, i know how it feels.

Now, im kinda like in his place.
So yeah.
I know he wont want me back as a friend anymore.
Dont matter.
Still, everytime i think about it.
It just hurts.
God, why did i have to..
Just makes me breakdown everytime i think about it.

----

So in class, i just read teenage magazine.
This is what happens when my mind's disturb.
i dont care about teachers.

So, i came across to this page about
Things to consider before being in BGR.

Are you sure you really love him/her? Is this relationship what you really want?
Can you take anything that comes your way, especially rejection from friends and family?
Are you willing to be committed and do anything to make it work?
Are you sure that he/she feels the same way about this issues as you do? (:

And i also read about problems people encounter.

There's a few thats like mine. haiz.
One of the advices.

Friendship Boundaries.
Dont expect friends to keep your secrets if you yourself can't shut up. Some information are best kept under wraps. Dont mistake your friend for a psychiatrist, doctor or counsellor. Friends are there to offer support, loyalty and love.

Please dont ask me why i bother to write it all down. :/
Its for my own reference.

I noticed that many of my friends treat me more like their counsellor.
So yeah. Doesnt matter.
Please read those in bolds.

I havent been getting, support from them.
And thats why.
Somehow I just wish theyd understand me.
Look deeper in me.
And ask me questions even if we're not in good terms.

But i dont know why they're like that.
Id thought theyd try to understand me.
Maybe, its just.
Its all, just not right.
highlight, if you wish.(:
--

Dont ask me why, i just feel like dying right now.
Life's a total mess.
And i really cant stand it.
Being in class 24/7 would make my day.
Cause i wont need to show my face to the world.
--

In class was fun.
Cause i have James, JS, Dominic to cheer me up.
Including Sylvia and Yun Ting.
Plus dearest Amalia.

I hope, Amalina's okay now.
(:

okay, so yeah.
I doubt anyone knew i was not okay today.
Cause i just smiled.
Yeah.
haiz.

Dont really know what to do.

I guess,

i'll quit blogging,
quit listening.
Quit talking.
Quit sleeping late.
Quit being sad.
Wait, might as well,
Quit living.

Well, maybe.
should be.
--

I need tomorrow badly.
Gosh, kill me.
someone?

need a new guy bestf.
Lost 3 this year.
And for the first time,
all this ever happened.
Coping stress is hard.

I'd just wish,
theyd bother.
or understand..
at least.
:'(

Yeah, i suck
Everyone's just friends.
TOP UP FAST LA YOUUU.
IDIOTXZSXZSXZSX.
ergh. H.

& now i have to go return money to the class.
erghhh. 15 buckzcxzsxz only. geez.
stress!

Labels: Possibly Dead by now.

Damn.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009, 8:52 PM

Im hoping Deena S. will cheer up.
Im sure there's a reason for everything!(:
I believe you can do it.
You can take back whatever that was said.
---

Foyer duty.
It was raining. Heavily.
Oh wells.

Had mt, and teacher never come.
sianzzzzzzzzzzz.

Had Eng.
Boring.

Had recess.
sianzzzz.

Had I hum.
it was boring also.

Had maths.
Normal stuffzzz.

Had cme,
boring.

---

Today is so worthless?
nothing interesting in school.
-.-
-----

Then had HMT, walked with Amalia
and talk about life.
Suckzzzzz.
K anyway, in hmt had loads of laugh with
Hasanah! :D but i disturb her when doing
she was doing her compo. heheh.

----

On the way home, just did thinking.
and more thinking.
and thinking,
until my mind was gonna burst.
Hell, idk what to do with ikh & them anymore!

:'(
--

Oh yeah, and i realise alot of people got kisses on the lips before.
haha, unexpected people. :P
K, so yeah.
Im a good girl, i dont do sins.
* hahahahahaa. *
No larh, i wanna get my first kiss
with someone whom im sure can be there for me through thick and thin(:
and must be at a nice place :P
So yeah, i think have to wait for ten years! D:
and of course i dont wanna be the first in my primary school cliques to do that.
eeewwww. id be the last! ;DDD

& im so happy with myself!
through this tough times,
i havent slash yet! (:

(Okay, prolly cause i lost the thing,
and Sylvia didnt come for days, therefore, no pen knife.)

HAHA. AND YES AH!
I FIGURE OUT ALREADY!
PASS, CAN BECOME * GF ALREADY SIAAAA!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
--

Oh yeah! & im so happy i fast today !:P
THREE MORE DAYS BABEH! :D

Funny right?

8:38 PM

Its funny when you said youre friends with someone already.
But the person still doesnt wanna allow you to read her/his blog.
Funny aint?
Might as well i dont take him/her as friends anymore.
But i know the person not using his/her com(:

& Hi you.
Are you talking to me?
You cant accept what i did?
What did I do?
what the fuck did i do ?
If youre not willing to do it for "me" then who are you doing it for?!
funny sia.
Who I hurt sia?
You got think about how I feel or not?
At least right, Sharonna understandds me here and there
cause i know she's been in my place before.
Being left out. By who ah?
I forgot ah*
Funny right? you talk as if im the bad one.
But i was talking about how i feel.
Like you never talk how you feel before.
You do that alot of times leh!
Then now you make me sound as if im so bad do what also idk alr lar!
KNN !
want peace also cannot.
its more like, I CANT ACCEPT YOU GUYS BACK.
you dont even care!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Do you even wanna know why i acted that way ? no!

I know why sharonna acted that way to me, cause of issuezzzzz.
You guys got know why i acted that way (being sudden and so sudden!)?
no right!
at least i bother to understand you guys better.
wtfish !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Go die sia, still talk nonsense! ERGH!

dah bagus orang baik siolz.

I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND YOU ANYMORE.
YOU MAKE EVERYONE SEEM LIKE THE BAD ONE .
AND YOU ARE THE GOOD ONE.
I ADMIT TO SOME OF MY MISTAKES.
DO YOU?
NO.
YOU ALWAYS POST BAD THINGS ABOUT PEOPLE LA.
LECTURE THEM LAR.
THEN I DO THAT CANNOT ARH? FUNNY !

& you lost me long ago.
i never existed in your lives.
-----------------------------
i only hear ONE NAME. ONE PRECIOUS LOVABLE NAME
EVERYTIME HANG OUT WITH YOU GUYS.
you know who.

im done. i wanna post about my life now.
thanks.

i miss you, i do.
But its hard to have friends who often misunderstand you
or dont bother about you.
Some times, its not just about..
yourself. im sorry okay.
it just hurts, so much.
Maybe, i just dont fit in.

Baby.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 9:02 PM

You're on the phone
with your girlfriend
she's upset
she's going off about
something that you said
she doesn't get your humor
like i do

i'm in my room
it's a typical tuesday night
i'm listening to the kind of music
she doesn't like
she'll never know your story
like i do

but she wears short skirts
i wear t-shirts
she's cheer captain
and i'm on the bleachers
dreaming about the day
when you wake up and find
that what you're looking for
has been here the whole time

if you could see
that i'm the one
who understands you
been here all along
so why can't you
see you belong with me
you belong with me.

walking the streets
with you and your worn out jeans
i can't help thinking
this is how it ought to be
laughing on a park bench
thinking to myself
hey, isn't this easy?

and you've got a smile
that could light up this whole town
i haven't seen it in awhile
since she brought you down
you say you're fine
i know you better than that
hey whatchu doing
with a girl like that

she wears high heels
i wear sneakers
she's cheer captain
i'm on the bleachers
dreaming about the day
when you wake up and find
that what you're looking for
has been here the whole time

if you could see
that i'm the one
who understands you
been here all along
so why can't you
see you belong with me
standing by and
waiting at your backdoor
all this time
how could you not know
baby
you belong with me
you belong with me.

instrumental

oh, i remember
you driving to my house
in the middle of the night
i'm the one who makes you laugh
when you know you're about to cry
and i know your favorite songs
and you tell me about your dreams
think i know where you belong
think i know it's with me

can't you see
that i'm the one
who understands
been here all along
so why can't you see?
you belong with me.

have you ever thought
just maybe
you belong with me?

---

sianz.
k anyway!
hi hi hi.
and if you dont know the song above,
i must say, you are an IDIOTTT.
:D like me.
except im smarter.
oh well.

imma heartbreakerr!
ciaoz. i cant wait for tmr hmt!
can laughlaugh some more.
but got test. sheesh. x:

Story of my life.

2:51 PM

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Some times you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, hmmm

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If you reach emptyness
You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, oooo

Everybody needs somebody who
keep a heart and soul in two

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am

----

Friendship is not just about hanging with one another.
And one person being by your side.
But its about cooperating with one another,
and knowing more another deeper.
Its not just about laughing and knowing if your needed.
Its about, do you really need them or are you worth being the friend?
(:

Sorry are just words.
If you think everything will be okay, it doesnt work for me.
Cause Ive had enough of crap.
Enough of no true friends.
And especially people who thinks that im the post below is crap.
You are not me, are you in my shoes?
No. So what do you know?
You think sorry is ok.
But do you actually understand whatever thats being said?

Neh, Im no longer there to make you understand.
Cause Ive been wasting my time and im tired.
Time to get true friends.

Well im sorry to.
And this is how it'll end.
You guys never needed me.
Maybe its time you guys reflect.
And was i ever there in your memory?

The one who planned all activities,
the one who made everything okay.
That person, is gone

from your lives.

KNN!

11:18 AM

FISH SIOL PEH KWN.
NAK MARAH BUAT PER SEH.
TK MASUK AKAL KAN?
DAH SALAH BUAT HAL SALAH AH
NAK DEFEND DIRI BUAT PER?
PI BELAH UH!
DEFEND DIORANG PUN TK GUNA UH
KNNBCB!

and i cant stop the tears from falling.
slash yozzzz!
yesterday just did..
again...
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

after all i did.
KULEXZ GIVE BACK YOUR DARLING ALR !
HAPPY WHAT!
NO PAIN, NO GAIN.
YOU WIN SOMETHING, YOU LOSE SOMETHING.

KAU BANYAK PER BAGUS!
ONLY GOT ONE PROBLEM MAKE BIG FUSS!

THEN LIKE OTHER PEOPLE NO PROBLEM AH?!
HELL I GOT TONS OF PROBLEMS THEN YOU AH,
KNNBCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK YOU!

WHO WAS THE ONE FOR YOU WHEN YOU QUARELLED WITH V AND A!
WHO SIA!?
WALAO, I TOLERATED YOU!
YOU KNOW WHAT?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DONT REALLY KNOW WHY I WAS THERE FOR YOU.
WHEN YOU WERENT FOR ME!

--

i found out who are my true friends.
ty aiman. (:
true friends are those who are willing to do anything for one another!
and i think ive done enough.
---

this is so confusing!
FISHFISHFISHFISH.
--

THEN STILL GOT ANOTHER LIFE TO THINK ABOUT.
ARGHHHHHHH.

I SHOULD GIVE UP ON ALL MY PROBLEMS.
AND JUST START ANEW, WITHOUT THEM WHO ARE MAKING ME FEEL WORSE.
sorryyy ikh, i told you i feel like loosing contact...
---

among everyone, i thought you were the one whod be there for me.
whod understand me. cause Ive gone through YOUR thick and thin.
seems like i was wrong.
You are the one who knows me WORST.

Labels: this is what happens when im mad and confuse.

HAPPY!

Monday, July 13, 2009, 10:29 PM

im glad that naafiu and aiman is talking to me
in a conference. (:
miss those times.
why muzzz they beeee in maldives :@

BESTFF!
and thanks for the advices.

I effing dont care anymore!

7:58 PM

You know what?! im damn bloody irritated already.
being in the middle sucksZXzsxz okay!
i got people complaining here and there and oh my god!
will you people just stop! im going nutszxzs!
i dont even blame anyone!

and guess what my "friends" ditched me .
hah. perfect friends.
you know what?
im out of the cliques, and please dont blame me!
CAUSE IVE HAD ENOUGH OF ALL YOU PEOPLE'S CRAP.
THATS MAKING ME GOING INSANE.

OH AND HELL. YOU GUYS ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE CRYING.
OH YEAH. I FEEL SO NOT APPRECIATED.
YOU KNOW WHY? WHEN SHES THERE.
ITS ALWAYS HER HER HER .
SO WHERE AM I ?
NO WHEERE. STOP ACTING.
IM OUTTA THAT CLIQUE!

I HATE YOU GUYS.
SO MUCH OF FRIENDS.
MAKING ME CONFUSE.

i (L) Amalia, Amalina, Sylvia & Yun Ting.
(:

& guess what?!
AFTER I CALLED, THEY DIDNT BOTHER LOOK BACK, OR WALK BACK WITH ME.
HAH, AND I WAS CRYING. OMG.
WHY DID I EVEN BOTHER TOO!?
thank god i had suhanna & nasuha & amalia & sab etc.
:)
i love amalia alot for actually waiting and calling out for me
eventhough her group was waiting for her!
& i didnt even have to tell her to wait for me.
sobzzz, i love her a million.

Friday going out with Amalia & Amalina :D

Labels: evaporate the tears.

Posting.

Friday, July 10, 2009, 8:32 PM

Hello, The two people above are my beloved friendsyy!
I miss them alot, and apologise for not spending that much time with that.
Will love you guys always, But im busy with prefect stuff. ):
I'll try and make time for you guys & continue with our crazyy moments!

& dont fret about whats been happening k?
Stop crying & get well soon, respectively.
Cool down, and talk to me if you got anymore issuezxzsxzs or problem aites?
I wont leave you guys alone! Always with you guys!
In my heart. (L)

And I'll only ensure that all problem with you guys will be solved.
Im like the middle person, so bare with me if i take sides, here and there.
But i'll try my best to satisfy everyone without hurting anyone.
(: Cooperate peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Love you all.

----

Photos above with Afiqah yesterday! (:
Yey, she miss me! hahas.
K anyw, yesterday met Baihakki. lols.
random.

--

Today had class party which was damn awesomxzsxzs. (like real)
haha, after that, kulexz + korrine + nat went to ehub
to do tshirt thingaye.
Otw, we got caught up in the rain.
haha, so we were soaked, LIKE DAMNN!
but it was awesome ;D
But in the end, when we reach ehub, the shop close
and open only at 3pm.
waited, and waited.. lolz.
then forget it.
haha.
--

:D
im so lazyyyyy!

So tired!

Thursday, July 9, 2009, 9:33 PM

OKAY, im like lying on the computer table.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

anyway, IM SO SORRY VANESSA!
i love you okay?
dont be mad kk?
(: must smile!
and take good care of yourself!

other pictures later. :D
k anyw, sianzzz.
went return my book.
then blabla.
and im so sleepy.

ciaozzzzz.

i enjoyed.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009, 9:52 PM

Hung out with Amalia, Suhanna and Syafiqah today.
i think. met izdihar :o

k anyway, had funn.
hehe, spotting guys.
and at least..
no pain..

k bb!

munief and sy wish me happy bday !
yey!
and munief, im not ----- okay!

Im lost..

8:39 PM

To my dearest
Bestest Guy Friend in The World!
whom i never wanna lose!

Pleaase pleaseee talk to me.
Sorry if my earlier text offended you or something!
I miss you! I miss those times.
Can we dont have this silent treatment anymore?
You were always there for me.
But this have been going on for months!
I wanna talk to you again, like usual.
I need you by my side.
I need you to help me get through things.
Its not the same with others.
Cause you know me well. You know my downs, my ups.
I just want you back as my bestest guy friend ever.
Its been too long,
Im so sorry. Please forgive me?
Back to the usuals, please?
I really miss those times when we were best friends.
When we always meet up.
Never wanna lose a friend like you.
Never wanted this to happen.
But it all depends on you.

I may be abit paranoid, obnoxious and whatsoever shit ass.
& i still am. (especially paranoid)
If you dont wanna accept the apology, i guess.
i cant say anything more.
But i know we can work things out.

Ergh! i want you back as a bestf!

`cause I just have to keep on smiling..
even if life's going down.

In adv.

Sunday, July 5, 2009, 9:31 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEARIE SISTER! :D(6th July)
(i know she wont read this because i moved my blog :P)
Well anyway, i love you many many!
I still think youre a very irresponsible sister though :P
But , its nice to talk to a noob.
hehehe.
Anyways, happy 18th birthday and hope school will be alright
on 20th July in Nafa!
Take care. & Cant wait to not to see you in the house :P
May, i bully you always :D
i heart youuu, sistaaaaa.

---
(have image, but lazy resize. heh)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADD & MY UNCLE! (9th July)
nyaahhaha.
to my dad: not like youre going to see this.
so im not gnna bother to right musy2 crap.
hahahaha. tc ly! :DDDDDDD

---

im so lazyyy to update.
k whatever.
life's okay. etc.
D: byebye!

SNAKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. ):
No, i dont like anyone.
i swear. dont ask again :D

TOMORROWWWWW.

I ought to update.

Saturday, July 4, 2009, 9:04 PM

Ive moved my blog, so i dont expect visitors. :D
Im gnna delete links.
Im just gonna keep close friends.
But if you wanna be linked, make sure you tell me if its
deleted. (:

Tag replies. :D

4 Jul 09, 19:56
Ibrahim: T_T
4 Jul 09, 19:56
Ibrahim: HI?
4 Jul 09, 19:56
Ibrahim: HI?
4 Jul 09, 19:56
Ibrahim: HI?
4 Jul 09, 14:11
iqah: nadd ! relink ehks. lols. muacks !
4 Jul 09, 13:41
AMIRA: I MEAN AD.
4 Jul 09, 13:41
AMIRA: HAHA,LOL.WHAT'S WITH THE ADD?
4 Jul 09, 11:52
kaiyee(:: NADDD! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, ILY:D
2 Jul 09, 23:32
Snap Print: We print t-shirts! Special student packages! Call 6352 2934. Vist Toa Payoh Entertainm Centre #01-09
2 Jul 09, 21:29
IQAH: random. u are loved
2 Jul 09, 20:57
AMIRA: YOUR BLOG SKIN IS SUPER DUPERR NICE.
2 Jul 09, 20:57
AMIRA: I'M SO JEALOUS
2 Jul 09, 20:56
AMIRA: I'M SO JEALOUS
2 Jul 09, 16:19
vanessa!: vroomvroommmmmmm!
1 Jul 09, 21:46
IQAH: i dont know a damn about what u are writing. update me pls syg. hahax. text me ! muacks <3
1 Jul 09, 21:45
IQAH: hey girl. i am not hopeless. and btw , u dont seem like u are sulking babyyy. lols
1 Jul 09, 20:19
vanessa!: i like ur skin zzz ^ ^
1 Jul 09, 17:49
AMIRA: Is the Dora me?Or someone else?
30 Jun 09, 20:51
vanessa!: WHERE'S MY TAGZ!?
afIQAH: taqqed ! dont make my heart get worse. lols !
28 Jun 09, 16:52
Amirah: Haha. He's like **** ass hot. If i were to go canada,i shall visit him. &maybe get u an autograf. (:
28 Jun 09, 00:40
AMIRA: Woah,i'm so confused reading your posts!Phew!

errr. where do i start?
o.o

Ibrahim; heh. Hello. (:
iqah; okehh babe! :D
AMIRA; dont ask me. haha.
kaiyee(:; hahaha. ILY TOO SEXAYYYE.
Snap Print; thanks but no thanks. haha :D
IQAH; lyt! :D
AMIRA; haha. yey! amira's jealous :P
IQAH; haha, okayy sayanggg. :P
vanessa!; & iloveyou! :D
Amira; Yes, its you my babby;D
vanessa!; everywhere! haha.
afiqah; its not delivered yet! ):
Amirah; aww sweet! haha.
AMIRA; sorryy babe. :D

Okay, i have alot of updating to do. o.o

Friday,
Had school. No study at all! :D
So yeah.
Had music, about MJ; gosh.
ergh . T.T
K, and then.
forget everything alr.

whatever.
After school with kulexz!
+ Bernice. haha.
And dot dot.
Then at NTUC;
Cashier: *somewords in chinese*
Me & Nas : HUH? *With blur face
Cashier: Do you need a carrier?
Me: No. :D
Cashier; sorry ah, i thought you both chinese, look like.
Me and Nas: Looks at each other & laugh. :D

* so went off to watch Transformers!
with her. and 5 guys.
blabla.
hahaha.
k ENJOYED IT! :D

THEN WENT HOMEEEE AFTER MCS.

----

Reached at 540.
then went grandma's house.
and i slept T.T there.
omg. imagine.
nvm.;D
went home.

Today woke up at 1130.
bleah.
Then used com blabla.
then went to school.
Then came back.
with blood on my feet
and me being an aunty.

Im gonna talk about my religious class!

Ustazah kate, saye kena tegur orang kalau buat maksiat,
nasib dah tegur. So, its not my fault anymore if you dont wanna listen to me. But i will always doakan korang to change for the better. You guys know or not that your iman sebenarnya kena tarik bila buat maksiat, so at tht point you are orang kafir. Then what if you die when you are doing whatever crap and shit? then youre dying as an orang kafir. imagine!

k, THATS short. only malay ppl will understand :D

k ciaoz.
so tired.

im so not updating.
and my mum says she's gonna buy for meee guitarr!
:D can ask vanny to teach me.
hahaha.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gNjiqygkBDw
& this song reminds me of H . ):
cause he accompanied me to the movies and this song came out
when it was only me and him ):
imy.

SMILE WITH ME (:D)

Thursday, July 2, 2009, 7:58 PM

Someday, everthing will all make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason:D

A friend is someone, who understands your past, believes in your future and accepts you just the way you are.

Firstly, Im gonna start off with pleading someone. (:

To ________ :
Please stop. Please stop acting like me. Dont think I dont know. You are close to me. I respect you eventhough, you really dont deserve it. Do you know how annoying it is when i view your blog and see you typing and writing like me. Please stop being me. It hurts, It just look as if im copying you! which is not true. Cut it out. Seriously. Please stop it. I know why youre doing all this. But i dont like this. Please be original, this is killing me. Before I move my blog, and not come back.

So anyway, today had STARS. practically did nothing.
And had, Eng test after that about MJ ):
I could have go one forever, but so lazyyyy.
Then we had, Recess.
Followed by health check up missed Chemistry class.
At around noon. Before that, during the check up.
WE, this big group which includes me teased Mr Fong.
hehe. :D i luvvvvv.
and stole his laptop to take pictures. HAHAHA.
dora dora!

Came back to class, and i told teacher to check his laptop
cause his "admirer"'s photo inside.
hahahaha.

& we talked about his life etc.
haiyoooo.

K, then we had mt.
No maths! yey!

me & amira declined the invitation to ehub !
for the class tshirt thingy cause damn lazy. hahaha.
how was it ? i wonder.. :P

So we discussed about the class party + class tee early morning T.T
And i have ALOT of money collecting to do!!!!!!
k anyway, yeah. Mr Fong is nice enough to pay most of it. :DDDDDDD
So happy!

K, anyway, im done with my book.
Its sad. I actually cried. duh, nadhirah woot.
Oh, and it damn bloody took me along time to decide my nickname.
hahaha.

K, im insane.
currently im consolling Jack.
So touched.

Haven finish holiday homework, not even one says:
IM FREEZING INSIDE EXPLODING OUTSIDE
THE TEMPTATION OF GAMES, KNOW THAT? FOR CERTAIN PPL
actually you helped me a lot
Nadhirah KULEXZ!♥ says:
aw. thanks. well, what games are u addicted to?
Haven finish holiday homework, not even one says:
You always cool me down
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Nadhirah KULEXZ!♥ says:
oh. So are you gonna start on your work now?
While you still have the time!(:
Haven finish holiday homework, not even one says:
i have 1 hour
can only finish some of the english
ok i start now
Nadhirah KULEXZ!♥ says:
good. (:
Haven finish holiday homework, not even one says:
good
Nadhirah KULEXZ!♥ says:
If you need help just talk okay? i'll try and help especially when i distract you from playing games (:
Haven finish holiday homework, not even one says:
Oh ya right thats good
you helped me again
how did you know you helped me
even my father never scold me because im not playing ok i have to start on work now
and singapore's latest update is 2 golds, 4 bronze and 3rd place in AYG
Nadhirah KULEXZ!♥ says:
(: good. keep up the good start. haha. ;D
Alright alright. do your work. hahas.

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Im really glad Ive helped alot of people these days.
I guess, thats what makes me happy.

My sis' friend said to my sis i took picture with a guy then very what?
lol. hahah. crazy.

And today, two people said im abnormal T.T

hahas.

toodles. So tired of typing.
D:

& i cut my hair two days ago! ;D

I feel so happy!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009, 8:12 PM

As you can see, the background has the word, "vroom"
It just reminds me of my beloved boyfriend, Vanessa.
Going 7 months on 05/07/09
Teehee.
Will always remember you love.

Im so happy today.
The happiest girl in the world
Due to alot of unexpected things.

I laughed & smiled alot today! :D
I noticed Mr Fong's new shirt and commented "you guys notice what i wear everyday ah?" haha.
Yi Quan gave me great news and im so happy she's my senior! :D
There was a quarel in class and i laughed x:
Mdm Jamilah took individual photos of us(which i am not happy about x:) & nasuha and alwani almost got away with it ! haha.
Alwani Cried :D
Sharonna mad.
Both okay alr with the help of the couple! (Me and Vann!)
Had a nice walk at the park with them to calm things down(:
My bus was uber late and i thought God was gonna make me meet ____ but instead i met someone i miss so muchhhhh & i will never leave his side. :D
There's gonna be a PARTAYEEEEE for 2/8 with danceeee! yey? (no! i have to collect money! T.T)
My sister is away like still not at home! ;DDDDD
Snake snake ! missed talking to him :D
I had fun during recess! ;D
Obsessed with the book "KuDamba Bahagia" & wont leave it. See, its not that bad Hamdan! :D
Talking to new friendss! :D
Im happy with my facebook notes done by Aqilah about me. (make me laugh! ;DD)
Im actually sulking and expecting hopeless afiqah to cheer me up. HAHAHA.
David is the new Geog rep :p
Ian is now, Ian Ericsson.
I believe, its fate :D
& other stuff I have forgotten.

So school was great. I love it alot.

Yes, Im back to girl smiling like nobody's business
and laughing at inappopriate times. but hey?
that have always been me all along.

Something very pai seh-ish:
Was in the bus, looked out the window, saw my ex schoolmate.
Was with his two friends, no idea why, i was in this(:o) expression when
I looked at em. Was actually looking at the one on the,left. But the one on the right was looking at me . Pai sehhh! As the bus moved, the guys looked towards the right(= me) & i was flushed.
Bleah, once in a while. They were cute okay, x: 15/14
omg. whyyyyy???

hahaha. k.
& i knew it was him instantly he alighted the bus.
As he walked, with the bag & the jaywalk.
Thats him, eventhough it was at a far distance & with no spectacles.
Ive lived my life with him, what do i not know about his style and etc?

Thank God, for fulfilling my wish to at least see him for awhile.
Imy.

Why is it so hard!

With Love.

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