Told you so

Please leave me alone,
subject to all
Appreciate it, much aites?
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Today; Eventful
I rushed out of house. at like 615.
missed the bus.
Bus came at 630. GREAT.
so yeah. reached school at 7.
in the end, i dont even need to come-.-
Waited for amira to go skipping briefing,
in the end no need to rush-.-

well anyway.
Did the skipping rope competition thingaye at
approx 820am while they do some walking (:
Bored me.

Hm, i was searching for this particular someone,
and then i couldnt find, so i was like whatever.
Suddenly the person walk across me.
Turns out that person was standing beside me the whole time.
how could i not realise it?

--

Back to story,
changed quickly after skipping
after all that, had to sing school song.
A tower of empty can drinks, dropped over someone's head xD
well, stupid AVA guys.
haha.

Next, rushed off to class to take a break.
Took pictures with Amalia/Amalina/Najwan!
:D my lovely back seat people!
:D the people who talk nonsense, and about our
love life ~! (exc naj)
& i dare say, ALL FOUR OF US = WORLD.
hehehe.

Well, i was the only prefect in class
while nasuha went for mc rehearsal.
and the other two for red shirt dance.
Therefore, i was stuck alone. LOL.

went downstairs to move the upper sec's butts up!
Sat at the canteen alone, thinking.
and thanks guys for asking me if i was okay(:
Im okay, just thinking about stuff.
haha, i know its so rare to see me alone being emo now.

and then went to find alwani& amira (DAMN LONG)
okay, and hung out for awhile.
Basically, i didnt talk.

Went up alone at 1045am.
(today, is so alone)
uhm, then watched the rehearsals for awhile.

then had to organise the students.
blablabla.

afterawhile, we had to usherr the teachers, lolll.
they so shyy can?!

hmm, after that sat at the back with the
"Poobyforce"-.-
which consists of you-know-who-are-the-three-guys
But they were nice, wondering what was wrong with me.
but keep on saying about you-know-who-shakes-.-

haiz, why does everyone have to ask?

well, so on, so forth.

And then watched the performance,
it was really nice (:
Especially the alumni's edition to "Home"
it was really funnny.

Performances today were solos from - Rachel & Justin /seperately
Sec 5 band. Red Shirt dance. 2/1 dance.
Also, beatboxing by Alister and Wei Ho?
(:

Slides from different classes were showed.
Also slides by the alumni.

I swear, the backdrop of the stage, is super bare.
and horrible.
--

A total contrast.

Head off to meet afiqah nadhirah!
:D that very idiotic girl.
Called up our gang, turns out both of us were at the corners.
nvm. (:

We headed to Mcs! and met up with the chinese guys :D
I miss them, HELL LOT!
and they all damn bloody tall puh lease.
Thanks for teasing me uh-.-
Punched them and chatted with them like forever!
:D

Went to xhps and met up with the rest.
oh my god .
Things have changed alot!

Saw sultan and shaik.
wow. very. mat.

then some other peepz also.
:D
and then yeah.
that bloody agil dont want go :@

Funny, this year the teachers come to us and talk to us.
o.o

Like Mr Roger Tan,
whom i very well know doesnt remember me because he was gone for years
and only came back at the last year i was in xhps.
He, came up to me and we talked.
LOL.
he's like the hottest teacher ok?!
but he's married, like AWW.

Haha.
Him: You should get the shirt for me! I really like it.
Me : HAH!?
him: No, im serious.
Me: okay larh, next year teacher's day i get for you.
Him : no need to wait for next year.. hmm. children's day?
Me: but we not children anymore leh.
Him: where you stay?
Me: around the area.
Him : in that case can pick up or smtg

i was like wthh!
hahahaha, first time we joked around!xD
and we were like in the middle of the pathway.
he was like interested in my DAMN BIG prefect shirt xD
and then yeah. blabla.

:D

XHPS' ISH is super colourful!
(:

Okay, then we talked to Mrs Lee.
:D:D:D miss her .

haha.

Okay, then me and afiqah went round abouts.
farah went missing.
prolly out with her bf. so wtv.
(:

okay, ANDAND
I CANT STOP LAUGHING AT HAFIZ !
SORRY FIZ! XD
kau klakar uhhh, hahahaha.
serious! baby face dokk! xD
okayyyokayyy, *people know what i was doing*
staring at laughing, adorable la.
i thought like hafiz was the small bro or smtg
like omfg.
arafickkkkkkk kept saying he's joker and crap.
xD

--

after awhile me and afiqah left and went pizza hut
to meet up again with the 20 6a peepz along with miss yin!
its like usual routine manz.

so basically, i took pictures there
:D so whatever.
afiqah went of earlier.

then yeah. A COUPLE HAD TO SPILL WATER INFRONT OF ME
AND MISS YIN.
*hints hints*
&& i hit Jia wei alot! heheheh.

((: then after taking group picture thanks to the LOVELY WAITER!
me & vicki & ky go get stuff for my home ec!
thanks guyz!:D

oh & ps; we treat miss yin half the price! haha
which was like 50 bucks.

Moving on, we shopped at heartland's cold storage!
wooots! and they gave idea fer my dessert!
i lurve my dars! :D

Greatest apology to these peepz! :
Arafick, Ariffin, Danial, Fazdli & Faiz M
! sorry to make you guys wait!
haha.

430pm went to hang out with the guys mentioned.
and they were psychos disturbing kids and aunties-.-
and i wonder why im friends with em.
LOL.

then 5pm. i had to "fetch" Rayyan-.-
While those guys left.

So left me & him.
We walked around, and talked about life.
and our past.
And books-.-

Walked ever so slowly due to his injured leg.
haha. im such a good friend^^
i can make him happy when he's sad ^^
okay, maybe cause im his ex, so how would i not know him,
right?

and things are always okay when we're around each other.
LOL.
and i felt like i was his . LOL.
okayy, no need to know whatever happened aites?

and i listened to his problems, he listened to mine.
and we argued like kids-.-
walked at the park whatever shit.

hahaha.
then we stay side by side, so yeah, walked together all the way.
(: and stupid larh he.
want me be his sister-.-
ergh, and then had stupid handshake by him.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

bestfs for life!
at least he bothers to knw what happend to his first love.
:D past and stuff. but then i kept on beating him.
hahaha.

;D
& i really thank him for letting me know about something.
i hope, i can really make "us" work right now.
i cant bare to lose that great friend of mine,
the one thats always with me,
the one that cried with me.
the one that accompanied me through the nights.

Dont know why we lost it.
Dont know why didnt make it.

& peepz, if you dont know who im talking about
shut the f up, aites?

Only Yan knows ^^
AND DONT YOU DARE LEAVE ME ALSO!
DAMN YOU.
rayyan only want see me cry cause of him.
>:(

but he's right,
me and _ shldnt have let it slipped away?
if we were together, things wont be this way.
im so sure, we wont part.
but things happen, people change.
guess....

i guess everyone find me weird today.
AND WHY ON EARTH IS EVERYONE ASKING ME HOWS LIFE
AND WHY THIS AND THAT
AND IF IM OKAY.

GET THIS : I AM OKAY.
MAYBE I AM NOT.
I AM THINKING ABOUT LIFE.
OKAY?
I KNOW IM EMO.
BUT IM TRYING TO FEEL BETTER OKAY!?
ergh )':

--

& this blog only displays a day post!
find other posts below ^^

& pictures soon?

& i effing dont care about anything anymore!
its tearing me apart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i swear, this friendship's gonna be over soon.
fish you.
i should tell you, the reason im like this is BECAUSE OF YOU.
YOU GOT IT!?
ITS YOU , OKAY!?
SEE HOW MUCH I CARE ABOUT ALL THIS!
FCK! IF YOU COULD SEE WHAT IM DOING!
IM TRYING TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.
AND YOURE THROWING SHIT ATTITUDE AT ME
JUST CAUSE IM DOING THE SAME!
FCK! YOU GOT THAT?!

YOU WANT ME, YOU TALK TO HER.
TELL HER THINGS I DONT KNOW.
AND YOU TALK LIKE YOU HAVE SO BLOODY EFFING FUN WITH HER
WHILE I STAY WORRIED WHAT WAS GOING WRONG.
FCK?! YOU GOT THAT?!
GOT THAT IN YOUR BRAIN!
FCKFCK.
LEAVE ME.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE!

I DONT WISH TO BE HURT AGAIN BY SOME OTHER GUY.

DONT YOU WONDER WHY IM GOING SLOW!?
FUCKFUCKFUCK.

IVE HAD ENOUGH WITH GUYS ALREADY.

Labels: we were more than just friends

i guess, so?

Sunday, August 30, 2009, 5:11 PM

Things you should know
▫ Im not a good girlf.
▫ Im very sensitive.
▫ I dont like to show my emotions
▫ I dont like to talk about my probs.
▫ Im a very happy person.
▫ I dont really like to talk.
▫ Socialable.
▫ Im very close to guys compared to girls.
▫ Can get too serious.
▫ very hyper.
▫ competitive
▫ sarcastic
▫ but i'll always be there.
▫ tend to get overboard
▫ super emotional.
▫ break rules at times.
▫ am just me (:

When im your gf
♥ I tend to be very jealous.
♥ I tend to cry alot.
♥ I always need you by my side.
♥ Can be demanding
♥ I suck.
♥ But, i love til death.
♥ Supportive.
♥ I dont like to give you my all, if you dont give me your all.
♥ I might forget that youre beside me.
♥ may under appreciate you.
♥ and stuff stuff stuff.

im telling negative stuffs here.

---

& lots more.
Im just warning, whoever.

haiz, im wondering whats happening?
maybe its just me.
it has always been me right?
im always at fault all my life right?

i dont get it, you know?
why people have to drift away from me just
because maybe, im not okay?

i dont know, i cant stop wondering.
and tell me why do guys always have to make me cry?

gosh, i feel so alone.

urgh, i miss texting faz.
maybe i should start texting again,
and ignore those morons.

i mean, i dont know!
:'(

whatever manz,
im such a bad friend and all shitty.

i just wish.. things would get back to normal.

argh, what shit.
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LOOKING FORWARD TO TOMORROW ALOT ALOT ALOT!:D

I MISSSSS YA GUYZZZ.

HOPEFULLY A CAN COME!
hehehe.

k done. byez.
omgeez, someone's mad at me. haha

& oh shit.
tomorrow must reach sch by 630.
damnz, that means must leave house like by 555am?
god.

& im listening to people's problems,
like yeay.
gosh, someone make me happy?

untitled.

1:39 PM

You are Almost Ready to Date Again

You're over him... well, mostly.

Truth be told, you still think of your ex on occasion.

Enough to effect any new relationship you may start.

Give yourself time and space - you are 90% there.

And don't swear off men, just make sure to play the field.

Are You Ready for a New Boyfriend?

Understand?

You're Totally Sarcastic

You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny.

Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it.

And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitude, then too bad. So sad.

How Sarcastic Are You?

ergh, im busy playing jamlegend,
so people,
DO NOT TALK TO ME.

Hey,

Saturday, August 29, 2009, 10:49 PM

Well hello.
Alot of improvements lately in life.

"Didik di didik oleh ibu Didik"
hahaha, k sorry!
xD i cant help it manz.

--
hmmm, what to update ehk?
like got nothing.

oh yeah, yesterday at 10pm
went gayyylang.
lolz., so boring, puhlease.
but im glad i have the kiddoz.

apparently, i miss alot of people,
especially, myself!
hahahahah.

teacher's day gonna be a whole new different
thing for me now aye?
cant wait!
hhahaha.
k whatever naddd.

i have no idea what im talking.

oh, im using laptop.

omggg, guess what???????????????
what ah?
k nvm.

stupid monday, have to go skipping competition.
nvm, will get taller :P

well. hmm
today religious class, was okay.
studied arab.
which was yeah, my never failed subjecct :P

hehhhh, then talked about dreams that made me sad):
cause like deaths and stuff.

bleahs.
i forgot what to update, like seriously.

and i think i should get to work with the lyrics i made
on 290708.
people told me to make it into a song-.-
ergh, im so lucky, my sis has to study about notes and stuff,
therefore, i no need to think!
once she's a pro at this, i cant ask her to compose ferr me!

oh, life is awesome.

oh yeah, then watch mj's concert .
hehehehehehehheeheh.
i mean )):

no idea why im hyped up.

and aww, peeps are saying ilys.

hahahahha.

k shut up nadhirah,
toodles.
and at last i can update my tagged/friendster.
facebook is dead currently.
multiply have always been.
plurk is on and off.

bye!

Oh./// whats wrong with guys?-.-

Friday, August 28, 2009, 4:35 PM

Your Love is Blue

When you love someone, you give your heart entirely to them. You believe love is an unconditional, unselfish act.

You don't love half-way. You are "all in" whenever you are in love, and you don't hold back.

You find it easy to fall in love. You accept people as they are, and you even can love someone's flaws.

Because you are so loving and caring, you are incredibly easy to love in return. Your heart is open and ready to be filled.

What Color Is Your Love?

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I would like to say,
another embarrassing moment happened yestrday otw to compass-.-
Baikkk!
okay, fine. whatever.
i hate buses.
ergh..

okay, moving on.
school was pretty much normal.
went down without reason.
lol.

hmm, i cant remember anything,
i mean i dont bother to.

except for after school :D
me luvv sayang alwani!

hahaha, i dont feel like tellin what we did here. :P
i mean, not nowww!

---

Well today, was pretty much upsetting.
Okay, i went mad.
as in mad= angry, ya knw?
and was going emo when doing my duties.
k crap.
but i had JAMES! JS! DARRELL! IAN! to accompany me do duty :D

They were nice!
Secondary 1 are so obedient, i mean the guys.
i told them to go up for awhile and go down faster, and they did that!
awww, they made my job easy :D

okay, they cheered me up, by not making me scold.
FIRST TIME DO DUTY, I NEVER SCREAM.
lol. k ssshhh.

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then right, got test.
and then, have uhhh, physics!
hehehe, the "VIP" sat like TOTALLY BEHIND ME
&&~! i still can text.
:P such a "good" prefect.

okay, i lurvee phsyics :P

anw, NO ONE NOTICE ME TEXTING.
awww, im good at hiding.
eheheheheheh

k shut upzzz.

er. so yeah, went back home with agil as my company.
hahahaha, could have met him for arwhile,
but we didnt collide ):
but we nvmmm.
eehhehehehehe. my exxx is weird.

okay, reach home use com:P

and another weird exxx called me-.-
okay, whatever ehhh!
you talk nonsense :P
if im not okay with tht person, what you care?
i dont care if you and him are friends!
tskkkkk.
and you hurt me seyh ):
yesterday met him then he thought im some chinese girl
then what shyt.
kk whatever, his friends are nice :D

:D

im so happy!
i have 300min free call, for this month only.

but im so sad ):
my inbox is full of guy's texts ):
i dont like ):
)): )):

okay, fine. whatever!
erghhhhhhh. ahhh!
dont know whats wrong.
anyway, going to grandma's house!
then GAYYYY LANG.
hahaha, kayy kayyy, whateverr.

im so annoying.
nyahahhahahahaha.

ala , whatever alr ):

----

im so boreddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
nafiu! munief!
eheheheheh . why must they live at MALDIVES ):
like OMG.

kk, then rightttttttt,
idk larhhh
---

stayed in sch for awhile today listen to lecture.
grrrrrrrr.
but it was okay!

--

monday wearing pe then PREFECT SHIRT!
WOOOOTS.
im so happy im in the event committee.
meaning im helping out with teacher's day :D

so yeahh.
and then going xhps with PREFECT SHIRT
*I FEEL SO PROUD*

hahahahha.
k whatever.

ciaoz.

im doing quizzes at BLOGTHINGS.
not FACEBOOK.
cause im sick of it :D

You Are Very Happy Being Single

You're not anti-relationship. You just don't need one to be content.

You find plenty of happiness from your life as it is.

And if you find someone you love, then that's just icing on an already decadent cake!

Are You Happy Being Single?

aww, and i got two new guyyf.
k i knw whats on ya mind alwani!
hahaha.
the fact that every friday is like, a new person day for me-.-

Labels: So dont promise me.

Very much okay.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009, 11:19 PM

"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it...It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more." - Erica Jong

Hello!:D
Kinda disappointed with someone.
Being her oldself.
well, ive got issuezzsxzsxzs.
:P

--

Anyway, yesterday was damn embarrasing,
so's monday . i hate on-the-ways.
Yeah well, nevermind.
No one needs to know!:D

--

Im so happy! :D
Someone bought my favv colour for raya!
and i bought his! hehehe.
ohhh great! :DDDD me lurveee.

Haha, *ehem* go pandang belakang again okay?
Maybe this time i'll be there :PP

---

Very much confused.
But i really am so tired,
can like i have problem free life?

Oh, wait,ive got the answer.
No.

Bleahhhhhhh.

---

Kiter same2 go crazy okehh?
Yey.

God, im so tired.
Like my eyebags are getting obvious and
I should really go offline, but i dont feel like it.

Im so sad.
Donno why.
hahahahahahah.

K, i should be serious.

---

NEWS!
I GET A2 FOR HMT ! :]]
BE JEALOUS.
huhu.

okayyy, i just finished my alternative assesment geog.
So not needed .
Its super . k whatever.

--

Currently discussing with someone with my issuezxzs/
*like real*
Oh , come on people!
You should really smile!:D
A smile is a facial expression formed by flexing those muscles most notably near both ends of the mouth. The smile can also be found around the eyes
as said in wikipedia! :D
hehehehe, oh i lurvee me!:D

okay, shut upzzzzz.

--

SCHOOL WAS OKAY.
TIRED.
LIKE.
SERIOUSLY.
MONDAY.
HAD COMPETITION.
LIKE, OKAY?
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
--

ANYWAY. tomorrow have to stay back til 5 plus ):
Its sad okay, i dont wanna go!!!
hmphhhhh.
Well, if it kills time, then fine.
*ergh. smirks*

---

Knock You Down

--

I would like to share a funny, girly story.
Hahaha, jangan marah eh you know who.
Someone right, scared of watching scary movies, i think la.
cause rightt...
hahaha, kay i better not embarrass him :P

hahaha, funny eh! . xD

---

Okay, first and foremost,
i mean, last and last most,
i would like to seek for forgiveness from whoever ive hurt or anything else.
dont mean it aye, me luvvv everyone! ^^

--

Hmmmm.
Now, i have nothing to say!
Oh oh!!!!

Eugene's bday's coming!
damn, i miss him!
hope he comes for teacher's day.
me want take picture with him! :D

--

Well, i am a good girl.
and i think i wont update tomorrow.
kay, everyone cry please. :D

--

I would like to look forward very berry much for monday!
hehehe, may be breaking fast with the girls and guys of ex-xhps.
i cant wait, babyyy!

--

I am proud to say, i am seriously paranoid.
omgomgomg.
k, ni semua pasal hassan la im going crazy!
hahaha. joking :D

k, gtg, (not really)
ive got nothing to say, peace out babes!
& dudes?

tccccc.

I swear i miss my bestfriend!

Monday, August 24, 2009, 9:19 PM

:D To my dear Wan Nurul Alwani Syed Hussein.
I miss you oh so much.
No words can describe the pain im feeling without you!
hahha, k cut the crap nadd!:p

anyways,
yesterday broke my fast with my grandma and etc.
:DDDDD
im so mad at my sister. grrrrr.
Well, i feel so accomplished this past few days,
eventhough i cried alot, but afterall, everything's okay.

I dont care about the changes anymore.
huhu, life moves on yo!
People cant just bring me dowwwnnn like that.

Im happyyyyy as life is,
got it?

So hmmm.
im soooooo, good!
i didnt slash, cause you know why?
God made me perfect as i am,
and im not gonna destroy what he'd done to me :D
oh-i love!

shit! the mosquito's biting me again!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

kay anyway, my point for today is that,
its really wonderful.
cause i have no idea why.
oh,i did class test so fast!
hehehehehhehe.
art was wow.

and hmmmm, okay, done!

had the competition, and it was damn dehydrating me , please!
omgeez.
so anyway, yeah, managed to jump score pass.
lol, whatever else!

grrrr.

k nights:D

FNN!

I used to be love drunk.

6:51 PM

Pheww, just came back from school
an hour ago.
Now listening to ayat-ayat cinta kn the radio..
Hmmm..

Well, went home sat beside some not okay guy.
Moving to the beat of the song he was playing.

Surprisingly, I'm very hyped up today.
Honestly speaking, I think I've changed alot since this year.
It's kinda sad, but i feel comfortable(;

I'm happy wih life.
Currently smelling the aroma of the food
my mum just cooked.
Getter. *stomach playing orchestra*
heheheheh.

Okay, update later.
In using my mum's phone FYI.

And ain't I a nice girlf * winks to fiancé Amira *
hahaha, k showed hubbyy how I would treat my boyfff luv!
:D

K peepzz , I know you love me
heh & I lurveee school!

Oh m geee, can't wait for Thursday!
Break fast with bestf alwani! Then maybe go terawih :D

ps; I went terawih with cuzzies yesterday!
Feeeeel soooo goood!
I love my God and mum and family!
(L)

Its complicated.

Sunday, August 23, 2009, 6:04 PM

Trust me, i never wanted all this to happen.

Haiz.

Whatever life.

I just hope things will be back to normal soon.

The reason i cant move on,
is because, the wounds in my heart is still not healed.
And i cant move on, because im afraid that every step i take,
is a mistake.

Sorry.
Sorry, to whoever .

&& thanks ehkk someone.
now you spoil my moood.
no wonder ah, thanks uhhhh.
k whatever sia!
freaking pissed!
kayykayyy!!!!!!

:@@@@

like seriously, i wanna go to a girl's school.
urgh,
THANKS SO MUCH.
I REALLY HATE THIS.
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nevermind. tomorrow will be okay((:
having interhouse games,
so yeah
Entrepreneurs will winn!:D
heheh, k ciaoz.

will anyone try to at least understand the situation
& understand me?

Labels: faking that smile.

What in the world?

Saturday, August 22, 2009, 10:23 PM

The title is inspired by dear Amalia.
haha!

Today went to madrasah and it was great as usual.
Ustazah never come sadly ):
But the rest of the class came :D
Juzantri came after months!!!!
He was like late and outside the class walking about.
teacher went out and ask him what class.

Him: Sec 2.
Ustazah: Its here.
Him: uh? i thought its in the other room??
Ustazah: This is sec 2 right?
Us: Yeah(giggling)
Him: *peeps in * Oh, a'ah ! this is my class ah.

hahah.
see how a poly student can act.
xD

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K head back home with dearie. :D
anyway, then reach home damn hungry.
used compter.
helped my mum * like real*
hahaha.
so yeah.

after breaking fast did my prayers and recite the Al Quran :D

woooooo.
well anyway, now im sitting at the computer still ever so happy!
and i better perform my other prayer.
:O

hehehehehhehe. i rock kayyyz????????

ya larh, my boyf sick ):
but i think he's not ok with me also.
): damn sad right.
LOL.
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&&ya know who.
youve hurt me to much, that i cant take the pain anymore
and ive let you go.
be happy.
cause i aint coming backk.
goodbye.
i know ive said it a million of times,
but its done.
im done with your ego.
your jealousy.
your emotions.
im done.
ive said the truth, you lied.
Stop it with your false pretense.
--

As my emotions run, and things go round.

1:08 PM

Its just too difficult.

swollen eyes.
damn.
i hate guys.

i cant decide.

and you told me to forgive and forget the past.
but did you do the same thing?

no.

im tired already..
so tired..

leave me alone

What now?

12:00 PM

i am suppose to upload photos with me and BESTF!
but unfortunately, stupid blogger.
so yeah.
xoxo.
--

Yesterday was cool.
You know?
i love doing my duty esp with Gershwin!:D
haha, he would be random, do beat boxing-.-
and follow me around. haha.

--

First period , had maths test.
im so pissed at question 3c.
damn, dont talk about it.

Second period had art.
:D gonna draw Someone unknown and Drek!
heheh, make sis jealous :P

--

during recess was okay,
i guess,somehow.

Third period mother tongue,
suddenly everything's about me.
Alwani babbyyy had to go far away from me!
HAHA. funnny.

okay, anyway, head off to help the assembly.
dangz, got bullied by lutfi and fadly.
like wth-.-
they dont let me go out.
omg! and the seniors were like teasing me.
wtfish
kk. embarrassing moments.

assembly was shitty.
but loved.
haha, got bullied by pooby force!
aka, egg head, tits and cherry.
aka rahman, edwin and effendi.

haha.
the i sat with uhm
the host was like saying
: who is sitting beside you is a game noob, raise up your hand?!
me and rahman raised our hands.
cause edwin was inbetween us.
hahaha!

and they all started immitating me and started talking about SMS.
grrrrrrrrrrrr.
irritating much?
and i know la, i cannot slap hard right?
no need to brag about it R and E!
-.-
sometimes i wonder, why you guys bother talk to me.
lol.

---

k then me and alwani rushed off to the mosque!:P
and then walk on the overhead bridge in the rain.
took bus to compass :P
then yeah. we had funnnn/
hahaha. i love my best friend!
bought her bro's present.

and you know what?!
that smart alwani spill water on me-.-

k nvm.

anyw, ciaoz.

Labels: let me run.

I just don't ubderstand

Friday, August 21, 2009, 9:27 PM

& I can't stop breakingdown every single day.

Why does God have to throw all this problems to me?!
I thought it's over already.

I just don't understand!
But I'd rather nit understand because it'll hurt me deep.

Bye.

Sudden

Thursday, August 20, 2009, 10:06 PM

Haiz.
Everyone's damn emo.
Had a nice chat with Agil at least.
but he was mad, so nobody was really happy.
kay, maybe H.

hm.
anyway, im so excited for teacher's day!
Lol. cause can go back xhps.

& maybe im breaking fast with them!:D
So anyway, i got to go study for tomorrow.

talk later?

I dont know already.
I gave up.
Four people gave up.
So am i.

its all about the same things.
but yeah.

Im not turning back.
and even if you come back in ten years.
i would be gone.
sorry.
youre abit too late.

anywayyyyy.
uh, what uh? a told me to text him whenever
haha, in class also can! yey!

and stupid stalker la bodzzzz.

haiz.

nights.
i love school!
im not hiding any emotions kay?
i show what i feel.
and thats happiness!

:D

& two guys asking me to keep the same secret
hahaha, funny!
;DD

k anyway, i luvvv me!

what?

6:08 PM

everyone's having a bad day recently.
so do i.
yeah . whatever.

and anyway!
i just need a one freaking guy larh please la.
aku minta satu bukan seribu. omg.

and wtf, this guy scaring me comment what shit in my tagged photos.
then WTF!
I DONT WANNA KNOW HIM!!!!

H, please!
ah ):

Chilling!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009, 7:33 PM

Hehhhh:D
I'm gonna update my blog soon!

Hehehe

I hereby.

Sunday, August 16, 2009, 9:57 PM

Declare myself that im officially busy.
LOL.
thursday stayed back for the dance thingy.
Unfortunately, 2/8 didnt make it ):
But great efforts were done!:D

Friday had lunch with Shar, Van and Alwani.
and i cant seem to upload photos, sadly.

So Friday i had to rush home and i took a nap.
and rush to my grandma's place for kenduri
Me like reading the doas (:

Saturday went to madrasah and actually fast. LOL.
er, then rushed home to Parkway to get stuff for
my cousin's baby. so yeah

Then head off to Pasir ris * winkwink
hahahahahah.
Someone will understand this. :P
K, anyway, and pasir ris collapsed.
hahahahah.

JK. karaoke-ed.
ate. and etc.
it was nice.
bondness was awesome! :)
went home at 1030 and it was REALLY quiet.
seriously scares me; i wished.. he was by my side.

well anyway, then uhhhhhh.
slept at 1230pm.
SORRY FAZ.

--

Woke up today at 7am.
Got ready to masjid al ansar.
hehehehehehe.
then right right right,
NURIN LATE!
the person with the sense of direction is late!!!!!
hahahaha, and i came earlyyyyy! loserzz.
and i fetched amalina-.-
hopeless.
hahah.

then we got into our group!
and my group's the only group with guys and mix madrasah!
hehehe.
IZAT AND SYAFIQ!
Dunman & mcperson respectively.
im more closer to izat.
huhuh.

anyway, whatever!
hehehe, pictures they will upload at fb.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

then after that me and amalina went to pasar malam,
FINALLY, EARPIECE ADAPTOR.

huhua.

we did treasure hunt!
the guys ah, noob semacam!
hahahah, fun lar.
syafiq scary uh ):
hahaha. he stare then smile xD

k whatever, and we damn bloody cheater and smartass!
omgg.
i luvvvv my team mates!

I & S & AMALINA!

we rockkkk.
eventho we didnt win!

Nurin so adorable!
hahahahahhaha. the skit part.
k shuush.

ciaoz.

& someone's blog make me damn sad ):
make me think of my own past ):
so mean. )):

and munief says i look cute doing ):
))))))))))))))))):
--

wait, after the thingaye, head home.
then took a ten min break
and head off to chua chu kang!
so far )):

but yeah, whatever.
nice larrrr.

tired manzzzz.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

k i wanna cry, cause im damn tired. )):
actually, i am.

lol.

er, nights?
can i give a proper update next time?

): (:
idk.

busy woman

4:09 PM

seriously.
i just reached home from the course
which was awesome.
and i met two new guys. heh

ciaoz.

uh, now going somewhere else.

die.

coursework havent do.

"The Good Nadhirah Kids Go For"

Saturday, August 15, 2009, 1:17 PM

So cool man the slogan!

actually gtg.

gonna go religious class then
head of to pr.

anyway, the jman and friendss super hated.
i mean not really,
but whatever.

bb,

Had fun.

Friday, August 14, 2009, 7:28 PM

i love sharonna, alwani and vanessa!
had lunch with them
enjoyedd alots!

Jman had to disturb me-.-

k whatever.
bb!:D

and i enjoy prefect dutyy!
heheheh.

and i think me and leonc make a great team!:P
We recruit alot of sec 1 to help with the staircase duty!
heheheh

nights.

COUNTING DOWN

Thursday, August 13, 2009, 9:36 PM

TO SUNDAY!
WEEE. HELPING OUT AT MOSQUE.
SO HAPPY.
MY DREAM COME TRUE!
LIKE YEY.
HAHAHAH.
I WANNA DO MORE OF THIS STUFF.
PLUS CAN MEET MORE PEOPLE.
ALL THOSE UHHH PIOUS PEOPLE.

AHH COOLZ.
new girlfriends!
new boyfriends!

and gettt rewarded for the nvm. :D
hahaha, learn zakat!
omg coolz!
do all those documents with lovely clique.

ahhh, we rockk!
so excited. D:

Going bedok.. maybe can meet ikhsan..
hmm.

&& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMALIENA.
:D CHANGKAT CHANGI.
MADRASAAHHHHHH !
AHHHH, 8 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP EYH!

YEAH Yeah

9:10 PM

WOOO.
schoool was awesome.
hahaha, last period was nonsense.
Syahmi and his WTH future life-.-
hahaha.

yeah well, okayy nothing to say?
Stayed in sch til 5pm.
Went to return books after that.
Head home at 6pm!
;DD

Awww, i should have went home early so i could talk to..
anwayyyy!

lalal,
i love you! :D
That emochick.
Bday thanks.
I mean, according to after midnight via sms

Sharonna
Alwani
Hamdan
Seraphina
Amalina
Fazreen
Jing Shen
Afiqahh!
Leon C.
C. Xin Yi
Nurin
Hasanah
Kai Yee.
Aishaidatina
Farah
Dilon

&& other peeps!
hahaha. and amira dearie for the call.

Ohhhh. hassan also!
hahaha, the most latest one! :P

okie, ciaoz. im so lame.

Page 1.

8:50 PM

NO.

6:48 PM

im so stinking right now.
and i just reached home.
and im not in the mood to talk.

Please dont ask me why.
is this really fate?
Ive been singing that song..
ive been playing it over and over again..

and it just brings tears donw my cheeks.

why?

I need someone new.

Cause, i finally give up.
I do hope, but its over.

Stop.

Damn tired

Wednesday, August 12, 2009, 8:31 PM

ARGH,
k nights.

MAT BOTAK!
hehehehehe.
My hmt relief teacher sayy !
damn funnyyy uh he.
talk nonsense.
kinda lame.
but yeah, at least i feel, live lier! :P

Kayyy, toodles!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Yey?

Tuesday, August 11, 2009, 6:55 PM

I am so tired now.
Just came back home.
Mentally and physically tired.

I love alwani, amira , nasuha
For their time (:

And I miss sharonna!!

Okay, I'm having a headache due to
Too many thinkings in my mind.

Shall study for maths!

Bye. :D

Its not gonna be the same.

Monday, August 10, 2009, 1:45 PM

I have no idea if i should be happy or not.
Because, now that, i got someone back.
I.. just dont know..
Im so used to ignoring, not talking..
Im finding it all odd, i can leave it just that way.
I dont feel like talking..

Guess which.

Now, i badly miss MD HAMDAN BIN MD.
sigh.
I dont know laa..
He makes me feel secure luhh.
Do things i dont expect guys would do.
Yeah, whatever kayy. :s

A song played on the radio.
A song that always reminds me of him.
Somehow i just started crying.
Why did i have to be okay with___again?

My sister asked me, "Nice right this song?"
Me: "Yeah"
Her: You download the song already?
Me: No.
Her: Why?
Me: Reasons.. (& whispered to myself, it just reminds me of him)
--

So things will never be the same again.
And i have no idea if its gonna be better or worse.
I'll just have to wait and see.

Dont know why guys i tend to spend time with always make me proud
Achieving stuffs and all.
Sigh.

LALALALA.
--

Anyway, yesterday came back home at like 2 am.
Heh. Went out with relatives at about 730pm.
:D we just went around.
UH, harnend waves?
Bukit chandu?
Mt Fabour..
and idk where else.
Railway.. etc.
so yeahhhh.

wasnt really comfortable.
Nvm. (:

Well, yeah. had fun.
took pictures. (:

Toodles!
Off to grandma's house.
then to aunt house to celebrate belated
5 yr old sulaiman's bday!

peace out!

Im hoping things will not turn 270 degrees.
SIGHHHH!

Labels: Need Help.

30 YEARS OLDER!

Sunday, August 9, 2009, 12:12 PM

HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY TOO SINGPOREEEE.

Gosh, if blogger would cooperate with me, i would have posted pictures and larger fonts.
Well, anyway.

I apologise sooo badllyyyy to ariffin & co
that i cant go to Esplanade with they all!
For one thing, all guyyys eyhh, and i have to do COURSEWORK.

haha, thanks Rayyan for asking!
And i had a short chat with him due to the condition of my phone-.-
Will be calling him backk laterr.

And he's soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo veryyyyyyyyyyy the perasaan!
hahahaha.
just cause i said ex he things its him-.-
Kepala otak luuuu!

hehe, jk!

toodles!
COURSEWORK!

& another stranger adding me in msn, haizz..
All friends of friend .. Arafick -- Hamdan
(A+H)= Hassan

Sigh.

BOO!

Saturday, August 8, 2009, 10:36 PM

I FORGOT TO MENTION
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MUMMM.
AND I HAD A NICE TIME EATING PIZZA AND LASAGNE :p

WELL ANYWAY,
HYPERRR.
WEEEE.

and and! hi ;D
i mean, wait what did i wanna say?
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

--

OHOH!
TWO RP STUDENTS DIED CAUSE GOT KNOCKED DOWN BY TRAIN!
): AWW.

Amazing.

10:04 PM

Love my boyfriend Pictures, Images and Photos

Today seems so much better.
Everyone is happier, and i have no idea.
Wow, life's turned around.

Guess what this new guy, named S___
confirm things im att !
cause of my pm.
and im glad he thinks that way,
cause i aint entertaining him :D

--

Today in religious class,
I ... I... had fun!
hahaha, cause we practically just watched a video
about Sheikh Abdul Qadir Al Jailani.
:D
Nice, but its so long.
thats what we did whole time :D
stupid flu.
stupid!
--

Currently, munief is drawing .. with me on his mind!
ehehhehe. yeayy! luv youuuu^^
--

anyway, nothing else to sayy eyhh.
decided not to talk about what i wrote just now.
:DDDDD

i loveeee Happy peepooos!
--

Oh yeah!
and otw to religious class met up with Rayyan coincidentally.
Had a short chat with him, cause i was in a rush.
Practically, i was at the stairs below, and he was at the over head bridge.
and we were laughing, shouting, hahaha. talking.
wth right? xD

Found out Sengkang won Bartley!
Awww Ipin! hhaha
Grats to Rayyyan!
:DDDD

tsktsk. seee, my exx aka bestest guyf always make me proud!
hahahah. lovee.

--

And ty to Ashwin! (:
Been a LONGG LONGGG time since we talked!
(: i loveee life.

--

And im hoping Deena BFFL is okayy!

Labels: Starting anew.

Did quizzes in facebook.

6:52 PM

cant publicise, so here it is.
Quote for me :
I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong.
You have a lot of things in your life that constantly bring you down, but you always try to smile and cover it up like nothing is wrong. You just want to live your life and not let your problems bring you down, as bad as you want to show it, you keep it to yourself.
--

How easy is it to hurt me:
You are the ultimate cryer
You cry for every reason. You are a weekling. You are extremely easy to hurt and cry about everything. It's a good thing to cry, but if you cry too much you're eyes will hurt. You should probably not cry so much, but dont hide your feelings either, just dont be so dramatic. It causes people to either feel sorry for you or create harsh thoughs about you. So, try to cry a little less and let out your feelings at the same time.
--

Few of many :D
True eyhh!
haha, got to goo.
PIZZAAAAAAAAAAA.

Not a waste.

1:24 PM

Yeah, its not really a waste.

will continue bout it later. :D

gtg!

YOUR LAST CALL.

Friday, August 7, 2009, 8:24 PM

Hey Lovelies!
I miss school, hell lot.
And i love myself, alot.

Please do not ask why im so insane nowadays.
Maybe because i miss school, and idk?

Yeah well,
Ikhsan's having an AFFAIR!
hahahahaha.
with Taylor and Megan.
Ohmyyy!

Heh, Im hoping everyone comes livelier now )):
When im sad theyre happy.
When im happy theyre sad ):
oh manzzz.

I so should have gone to school today,
and turn things around!

yeah well.
i love you, always will.

TCCCCCC.

the i love you is meant for my mum :P
hahah, no lahhh.

meant for you!♥
& i hate the fact i havent sing for days ):

I am so meant for you,
I am so in love with you.
And i just stopped trying.
And gave up.
Yeah, i know its sad, this is fate.

But whatever.

Last Call,
Goodbye. :D

Should I smile because he is my friend?
or should i cry because thats all we'll ever be?

So thats why, id rather not know if im his friend or not!
tsktsk.:D

YO!

7:14 PM

MY NAME IS NADHIRAH.
AND I MISS MD HAMDAN BIN MD!
HEHEHE.
BYE.

Finally I move on (SHUUUSSHH SAB! :P)

5:36 PM

Thursday, August 6, 2009
Lean On Me.
7:55 PM

He screamed at you.
You let him do it.
So when i find him,
He's deadmeat.

You said he was nice,
And so did everyone else.
But now things have changed,
You're in such a mess.

At first he just smiled,
All the way through.
But that was for show,
Just to get to you.

I didn't like at all,
The fact that you liked him,
I kept my mouth shut,
But your eyes only saw the dim.

And now he's had enough,
He's left you down the gutter
You think you're alone,
But I'll make you feel better.

If he ever comes back,
And hurts you incessantly,
I will find him personally,
So Lean On Me.

Copyrght FROM bestfriend, Aqilah! :D
A dedication to me, about him.
:D Thanks, my love!

Maybe, i should really give up :D

ciaoz.

11:20 AM

I love everyday!
Thanks, Hun!
Teeeeheeeeee

Flooding!

Thursday, August 6, 2009, 7:33 PM

Guess what?
I havent eat medicine xD
OR anything else.
and been on the computer for ages!
Heh.

Well anyway,
Miss you(L)

& i want you to be okay.

Ne-Yo Ft. Cristal Q - Im sorry.

7:24 PM

Momma I'm sorry
You know I never meant to hurt you, no.
But I'm in love with the boy next door.
Momma, please understand
And momma I'm so sorry
But I don't think that I can let hem go
I'm in love with the boy next door

Starring at your picture
My vision is blur
My eyes are feeling petit
With every word.
They're trying to tell me
I'm only a kid and that I
Can't be in love
I don't know what it is.
And they keep trying to confince me that you ain't no good for me
(You're to young to know, baby, just let it go.)
And they just won't accept what we are
And what we can be
(So this letter reads)
Momma, please understand.

Momma I'm sorry
You know I never meant to hurt you, no.
But I'm in love with the boy next door.
Momma, please understand
And momma I'm so sorry
But I don't think that I can let hem go
I'm in love with the boy next door
Momma, please understand

And I know that she
Thinks that I'm yound and naeive
Don't know what's good for me
Think of your future
She says with tears in her eyes

(Don't throw away your dreams)
About loving some guy.
Momma please have more faith in me
you didn't raise a fool
I'm gonna stay by ya said though I know you don't want me to
So this letter reads.
Momma, please understand

Momma I'm sorry
You know I never meant to hurt you, no.
But I'm in love with the boy next door.
Momma, please understand
And momma I'm so sorry
But I don't think that I can let hem go
I'm in love with the boy next door
Momma, please understand

Nothing I can say to
Make you feel the way you feel
But finally i found the love
that I know is real, really real
And I ain't gonna give it up
Not for nothing
I ain't gonna give it up (noo)
So momma......
............................
Momma, Please understand!

Momma I'm sorry
You know I never meant to hurt you, no.
But I'm in love with the boy next door.
Momma, please understand
And momma I'm so sorry
But I don't think that I can let hem go
I'm in love with the boy next door
Momma, please understand

BOO!

6:49 PM

heh, I know you guys miss mee.
awww. so sweet.

unbelievably, my "bullies" miss me :P

*When you love someone, only you can tell, but when you are in love with someone,
everyone else can tell.*

Oh My YO.

5:14 PM

ade orang tuuu kannn, use my songgg
as orang tuu punyer song of loveee kononnyerr.
fishhh youuuuuzz.
haha, im so bloody mad
cause of DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
;D

WELL ANYWAY.
IM SO FRUSTRATED THAT I WONT BE ABLE TO SEE
THE FACE PAINTIN ):
CRYYY WITH ME , YOOO.

Im so happpyyyy,
cause im finally letting gooo!
haha, i dont knoww!

gosh, sickness is driving me insane.

But yeahhhh, im cool!
so coool ! :P

Because,

1:35 PM

Its all my fault.
I admit it.

So yeah.

If you see this, Im sorry.

But you wont! ;D
So im not! haha. lol.

11:43 AM

the notebook Pictures, Images and Photos

I am currently doing FnN
that needs to be done by Tuesday(the first day im back to school)
And i need to complete 26 pages (:O)
Well anyway, listening to .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B7sDWs6qcVc

And im wondering how noisy/quiet the class is now.
Because the backrow is currently empty xD
With only Amalina at one end, and Wai Kit at another.
Furthermore, there are 6 people who are absent!

RECORD BROKEN!

oh well,
toodles! :D
And im still feeling the same.

Did you know?

Its the first time i eat medicine at the right time
and actually follow how many times i must eat!?:O

Success!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009, 11:16 PM

My video is working on track (Haha, I sound like im doing a business xD)

Well anyway, hello.
Goodbye.

God, I miss people.

And i cant believe i aint going to school!
GRRR!

THIS FEELS WRONGGG.

8:42 PM

DID YOU KNOW...

I cut my wrist?

Haha.

Sucks.

6:41 PM

So not okay. Aint feeling better.
And i feel like dying. omgeez.
Stupidzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
k, anyway, i have lots of homework to do.
Me and Darrell probably wont come til tuesday :D
haha, cool or what? we both having the same sickness.
:o alrights.

I have four types of medicine; one sweet, two types of pills, and syrup.
As, you dont know, i cant eat pills, but im trying to.

Guess what i did? I smashed em, and then put it in my mouth
Its so yuckkkkyyy.

And second attempt, i dissolved them in plain water. :D
Much better.

Well , update later.

I hate this flu.
& the fact i wont be able to celebrate NDP in school
Plus, I feel like a sucker and a loser!

I need knowledge!

Stupid symptoms of H1N1!

This is the first time Im sick for long days,
I feel so UNCOMFORTABLE!
dangzzzzz. ♥

Thanks

Tuesday, August 4, 2009, 8:05 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
haha, four days ago!

Thanks for like 20 text!
Top 3 midnight people
Sharonna/Alwani/Hamdan! :D

--

And also receive many belated wishes!
haha, thanks! ;D

--

Luvvv you guys.
And thanks for the presents too! mee luvvv.

--

I am currently feeling so uncomfortable.
I really dont wanna attend school tomorrow.
But i'll just be strong, aye?

So yeah. fever & fluuuuuu go away!
D:
This is the first time ive been sick after a year.

--

& i havent do fnn mindmap. ):
I cant think.. haizz..

& ive sneezingg!

I think got infected from my cousin -.-

Oh well..

:D

And all i want is him to cheer me up..
Like how i did to him...
and i remember him forcing me go doctor..
and the other way round too..

but as usual, i dont bother about it anyway

Its. ):

5:50 PM

Im sick.
Very sick.

I feel warm.
And my stomach hurts.

I dont feel well.
I dont feel like going to school tomorrow.

--
A SONG I POSTED Dec 7 08.
Sunday.
:/
'

Ceritaku - Revalina.
Di malam ini , Di Waktu ini
Ku masih terkenang dirimu
Biarpun tiada kau disisi , diriku .
Senyumanmu , raut wajah mu
Membuatku terus merindumu
Biarpun kau meninggalkan aku , cintaku .

Ku cuba tanpamu disisi
Ku cuba tanpa hidup denganmu
Meskipun ku tak mampu lupakan mu , kasihku .
Ku cuba tanpamu dihati
Ku cuba berhenti merindukan mu
Ternyata tiada pengganti dirimu , selamanya .

Sedetik ini , ketika ini
Ku masih memikirkan mu
Dimanakah dirimu kini , gadisku .
Andai aku , ulangi lagi
cerita aku dengan kamu
Takkan ku menyakiti hatimu , bintangku .

Ku cuba tanpamu disisi
Ku cuba tanpa hidup denganmu
Meskipun ku tak mampu lupakan mu , kasihku .
Ku cuba tanpamu dihati
Ku cuba berhenti merindukan mu
Ternyata tiada pengganti dirimu , selamanya .
Kini . . . .

--

& I wished he would sing this to me.
So, i would fall heads over heels again..
and again..

Apa khabar
Engkau disana
Moga kau
Baik-baik sahaja
Aku ingin engkau tahu
Ku selalu
Merindukan kamu

Apa khabar
Org tua mu
Masihkah lagi
Marah padaku
Ku harap tidak begitu
Kerna aku
Tak seperti dulu

Dan aku
Kini kembali (dan aku kini kembali)
Sebagai lelaki yang baru

Kini aku
Pulang kepadamu
Wahai kasihku
Seperti mana yang ku janjikan
Waktu dahulu
Kepulangan aku ini
Untuk menyambung
Cintaku kembali

Terimalah diriku kembali
Wahai sayangku
Maafkanlah aku kerna terpaksa meninggalkanmu
Kerna itu yg terbaik
Kini aku pulang sebagai
Lelaki baru
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& i uploaded this: on feb 22

Quotes About Love And Hapiness from timechaserz on Vimeo.

&& im just reposting and reposting the past posts..

Leave it.

Monday, August 3, 2009, 9:34 PM

I'm Super sorry to Munief for making him wait one whole day
for me yesterday.
Im sorry. ;)
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And oh-my gosh. a great thanks to Ibrahim for ! :D
haha. me luvvvvzzz.

--

And to someone,
you dont know?
I really dont believe you.
It hurts, yo!
You suck. For the first time, I have to say this.
You knew it all, but you just wanted it all to yourself.
Its not fair.
Its not fair, D.

& you dont understand DK.
Its not DK's fault!
You should just be there !
Ergh, im so freaking mad at you.

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Other than that, today i skipped HMT for once!
haha, due to bad influence by hasanah! hahah!
K, went off with them to Library.
And lunch at kfc. :D

I headed home afterwards.
--

In school was boring, time pasts so fast.
Probably because i was thinking of alot of things.
And i didnt pay attention.
And i was actually c* but nobody knew. ;)

--

So, Ive been uploading photos for 3 hours-.-
and its still not over.
dangzzz.
i hate cameras.
grrr.

--

Okay, yesterday was a BOMBSXZS.
went out with boogies.
pictures are with Amira and Alwani.
Mine - uploaded in facebook (:

Okay, we had a hard time picking my ring :P
And amira proposed to me!!!
hahahaha. k lolz.

Yeah.. so hmmm.. me and sab went home at 4pm like that.
:D
I enjoyeddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

Love them very muzchzczxch.

& not forgetting NASUHA!
HAHA.

WHAT A BLOG POST.
FUNNYYYY LARHH YOUUUU. xDDDD

me luvvv you toozzz!
thanks for spending time with me! ^^

--

Then reached home at 5pm like that.

Got ready to go out with relatives. ;D

Left house again at about 630pm.

Met them East Coast. :)

Camwhored alot!

And lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvved.
PHOTOS IN FACEBOOK.
BUT NOT DONE! :@

k anyway, more photos with my aunttt.

:)

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Went home at like 10pm.
:DDDD

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Im done.
Im so tired.
Basically ive been crying.
Yeah, whatever.
And staying up late.
Im dying here.

I think ive been keeping too much already.
Letting it all out, dont work anymore.
I feel like killing myself.
Its a disease, and its spreading in me.
I cant do anything about this.
I need you. Right now.
& i just keep breaking down over and over again..

And for goodness sake, im talking to a SUNSHINE TEDDY BEAR. -.-
and i wonder why everyone really thinks im those sunshine girls.
Cause thats what people thinks.
everyone thinks im the happy happy ones.
And they cant differentiate me when im sad.

Im such a good pretend.

I'll leave it that way.

Happy.

Jika kau kekasih
Ikin menjadi semakin bingung. Kenapa dengan dirinya? Haruskah dia terus membiarkan diri diheret kenangan silam yang menyakitkan dengan membiarkan kesedihan terus bersarang dan bermukim di hati tanpa mahu mencari penawarnya?
Dia tahu dia tidak sepatutnya meneruskan kehidupan yang sebegitu. Dia nanar memikirkan persoalan itu. Haruskah dibiarkan, tanpa mahu mencari jalan penyelesaian? Dia bimbang annti diri umpama sebuah pelabuhan sepi. Dia ingin mencari bahagia tetapi dalam waktu yang sama dia takut melukakan hati insan yang dicintainya.
Jadi.. apa yang harus dilakukannya.

And that girl, is me.

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& babbyy, are you really happy?
Is this really what you want?
Cause we can turn it back all over again.

Your Defense Mechanism is Isolation

When life gets to be too much to handle, you just withdraw. You rather not deal with things.

You tend to be a very isolated person. You want to connect to others, but you don't know where to start.

The problem with withdrawing from the world is that it's hard to reintegrate yourself when you're ready.

Instead of pulling back when you have problems, it would be better for you to reach out.

What's Your Defense Mechanism?

Crazy/

Sunday, August 2, 2009, 12:04 PM

All gone bonkers xD
My dad especially s:

k, going swensens with the BOOGIES(C) !

thanks yozzzz guyyyzzzz.

MUST.

Saturday, August 1, 2009, 9:47 PM

I need help. I give up already. I guess, i just have to give my all to stop. Even if it takes me days or whatsoever shit. I dont care anymore! Its done. So why am i even holding back? I dont know. It seems really unfair that nevermind.
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Dont be with someone you dont love whole heartedly.
Dont just be with him/her just cause you wanna forget someone.
You'll give them pain.
Thats why i dont dare to be attach.

Great, two people confusing me-.-

Anyway, i know guys inside out!!! ;DD

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Promises were made, but not kept.
Remember i told you?
Dont make promises when you know you wont fulfill them.
But somehow, you made lots of promises.
And you broke them all.

Amazingly, i am sitting here whipping.
wooo.
And i have a feeling im gonna cry to sleep today.
Swollen eyes tomorrow.
Oh, and meeting my beloved BOOGIES. :)

I wonder, i wonder if id receive any wishes from you all my life?

Because i believe in you. I never stop. I never did. I dont know why. But if its fate, then i'll know sooner or later, no rush. I dont mind being this way forever. I dont believe in love anymore anyway.

I hope, one day.
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Anyway, songs playing.
Are songs that have lots of meaning yeah? ;D
Its old.

& I should really cheer up.

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tsktsk.
Muneif said something funny.
like how * i am. and * i am. ahaha.
And the fact im * than incredible hulk the girl.
xD and also, the part his eyes poped when he saw * facebook.
hehehehehe.
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k goodnights!

Help me.

7:51 PM

I should stop.
I should really stop.

Someone?

COUZIN.

1:27 PM

Had fun yesterday.
i got bday present "pricked by durian-.-"
and as for my younger cousin bday present "his tooth came out!"
haha, k whatever.

had funzzz.
update on monday/sunday.

got to go.
later on need to do FNN.
dangzzz.