Told you so

and left with .. 30 % and practically, not gonna charge it until i hear smth from you (impossible) or perhaps til you go online(high chance of not). Wanted to download songs, but had to postpone due to the unexpected reply. wait, it was expected, thats why i wanted to reassure again . haihs.

Najwan's being sucha nice friend accompany me play bowling til idk what time, cause i no mood already to do anything except play tht game. (:

And Amira for so called DENYING the truth, of i know what will happen. (:

Here I go , Scream my lungs out, and try to get to you . You are my only one. I let go .

There's just no one, who gets me like you do . You are my only, My only one.

Happy Birthday , and its only Four more days, but i feel so insecure ~

I know history wont repeat itself, but at this moment, i feel like slapping myself.

Cause i think it would.

haihs.

My whole damn family now knows about him , which is a good thing. But i hate my sister for being so ~

idk. despising me ?

But who cares, my mum's really great. I shant elaborate. I just dk how to live my life now that my dad always tease me ~ adding on to school ~ grr.

I think im such a bby, cause i only know how to cry. I dont express. Gosh, i should go to a psychiatrist or something, cause i think im having trauma.. idk .. the past just keep haunting me nowadays + nightmares of them. It hurts. Woke up just to cry again . Not like anyone cares ~ So dont matter.

Hush, youre colouring my eyes red . Your love's not alive, its dead.

This is where it ends.

Oh, my mum rocks, she keeps hurting my dad, as in verbally :P

Like hit back ,ya knw with sarcasms? hehehehhehe.

(: cause for me ~ weee ~

Just hope the love wont fade.

I'll throw it all away , to the shadows of regrets and you would have the best of me .

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hmm. i really have nothing to do , i wanna off the computer.
But i wanna stay up and wait for you , eventhough its really obvious to me that youre not going to go online.
i really dont know hows your life right now.

i feel fcking useless.
i dont know i dont !
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Plus my bestf, is mean . No offence, but yeah . She doesnt give a damn to my life at all.
Instead, interupts about hers, i really do wonder, why am i being there for her.
Sick and tired already . I think i had enough already . Not gonna be bothered bout her anymore .
Like as if she notice the change, cause the world revolves around her life~ as usual .
And mine? set aside.

im being an ass.

As the river flows.