Spent, hmm. One month and  and 9 days with him. Im so happy I have him with me right now, and till the end, hopefully. I never regret the times i spend with him and those bad times that we had. Instead, Im grateful to have him a part of my life. The one who makes me happy and cheer me up. But also the one that break my heart and sometimes leave me alone to wonder. Amazingly, I have never ever thought of leaving him. And for the first time, I have fully planned my life with someone I love. And thus, I can never let go.

Okay, he always misunderstands me and doesnt trust me. Doesnt really matter, cause I know he loves me. This love can never fade, and will never fade as long as we have each other. I suppose. Distance doesnt really matter anyway, I'll go all out for him, no matter what happens, and I hope he does too.

I miss his touch, his smile, his kiss, but well, i'll wait a day or two for it. Maybe i cant stand it no longer, pick up my phone right now, and rush to meet up with him. Of course, im patient. For love is patient, and kind , it doesnt envy, it doesnt boast. (: (cool, i actually memorise!) Okay, I swear I will never screw up anymore the next time i meet him, cause its precious. And hell the whole school can keep on teasing me, but like i bother-.-

Point is, those actions in romance movie, are actually happening to me. And sometimes i wonder if its a dream, cause i never expected all this to happen so fast, so quick, so real. I never wanna lose him.

"Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling and everytime we kiss, i swear i could fly."

You asked, why did i cry infront of you, and i still havent answered.

Truth is, i always feel like crying whenever we part, and especially when we fight or when things are not ok. As you know yesterday, you seriously pissed me off. But i cant get mad at you for long, eventually i smile, and cry and smile again. and pretend it all never happened. Never will i forget the way you touch me, the way you kiss me, the way we hold. And everywhere i go with you, eternity is just a step away.

Honestly, I do feel unappreciated by you sometimes. Because, i guess, i dont know and it just sucks when everytime we part all you say is goodbye. i hate it. Can you pull me and at least wrap me around in your arms or something? Im not a tiger you know. or a lion. I miss when you used to give me long mail messages, and sweet texts, guess i wont be receiving them anymore. And i guess thats what hurt me most right now, because they things you did in the past, are the reasons i fell for you. But you dont do things you used to.

I wanna guide you, spend my whole life with you, and create a family with you.

I need your trust, I dont know what to do to get them.

The four days in a row that i met up with you, are the days i i had always looked forward to, but never expected it to come but now i miss you so very much.. Wednesday[Penin with you.], Thursday[PRP with you.], Friday(Screw it!) and Saturday. 

How i feel to know youre gonna start work? Obviously heartbreak. But i dont wanna tell you. Reason? Because i dont want you to stop pursueing what you have wanted and decided on. Besides, I dont think i can go out everyday. Sadly, youre gonna work and not be by my side. sigh.

I love you, and always will.

NadhirahBMF©

& they keep saying "You love him very much dont you?"

& i repeatedly answer "Yes, very. I didnt know its obvious."

"It certainly is."

Currently listening to : You are not alone.That gets me cracked up ever since i keep hearing the kids in my religious class singing the song, its uber cute ! and i get to listen to it every week! amazing ! hheeh . xx.

Just need you, right now.

Grab me by the waist and kiss me by the cheeks.