Told you so

Please leave me alone,
subject to all
Appreciate it, much aites?
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Today; Eventful
I rushed out of house. at like 615.
missed the bus.
Bus came at 630. GREAT.
so yeah. reached school at 7.
in the end, i dont even need to come-.-
Waited for amira to go skipping briefing,
in the end no need to rush-.-

well anyway.
Did the skipping rope competition thingaye at
approx 820am while they do some walking (:
Bored me.

Hm, i was searching for this particular someone,
and then i couldnt find, so i was like whatever.
Suddenly the person walk across me.
Turns out that person was standing beside me the whole time.
how could i not realise it?

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Back to story,
changed quickly after skipping
after all that, had to sing school song.
A tower of empty can drinks, dropped over someone's head xD
well, stupid AVA guys.
haha.

Next, rushed off to class to take a break.
Took pictures with Amalia/Amalina/Najwan!
:D my lovely back seat people!
:D the people who talk nonsense, and about our
love life ~! (exc naj)
& i dare say, ALL FOUR OF US = WORLD.
hehehe.

Well, i was the only prefect in class
while nasuha went for mc rehearsal.
and the other two for red shirt dance.
Therefore, i was stuck alone. LOL.

went downstairs to move the upper sec's butts up!
Sat at the canteen alone, thinking.
and thanks guys for asking me if i was okay(:
Im okay, just thinking about stuff.
haha, i know its so rare to see me alone being emo now.

and then went to find alwani& amira (DAMN LONG)
okay, and hung out for awhile.
Basically, i didnt talk.

Went up alone at 1045am.
(today, is so alone)
uhm, then watched the rehearsals for awhile.

then had to organise the students.
blablabla.

afterawhile, we had to usherr the teachers, lolll.
they so shyy can?!

hmm, after that sat at the back with the
"Poobyforce"-.-
which consists of you-know-who-are-the-three-guys
But they were nice, wondering what was wrong with me.
but keep on saying about you-know-who-shakes-.-

haiz, why does everyone have to ask?

well, so on, so forth.

And then watched the performance,
it was really nice (:
Especially the alumni's edition to "Home"
it was really funnny.

Performances today were solos from - Rachel & Justin /seperately
Sec 5 band. Red Shirt dance. 2/1 dance.
Also, beatboxing by Alister and Wei Ho?
(:

Slides from different classes were showed.
Also slides by the alumni.

I swear, the backdrop of the stage, is super bare.
and horrible.
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A total contrast.

Head off to meet afiqah nadhirah!
:D that very idiotic girl.
Called up our gang, turns out both of us were at the corners.
nvm. (:

We headed to Mcs! and met up with the chinese guys :D
I miss them, HELL LOT!
and they all damn bloody tall puh lease.
Thanks for teasing me uh-.-
Punched them and chatted with them like forever!
:D

Went to xhps and met up with the rest.
oh my god .
Things have changed alot!

Saw sultan and shaik.
wow. very. mat.

then some other peepz also.
:D
and then yeah.
that bloody agil dont want go :@

Funny, this year the teachers come to us and talk to us.
o.o

Like Mr Roger Tan,
whom i very well know doesnt remember me because he was gone for years
and only came back at the last year i was in xhps.
He, came up to me and we talked.
LOL.
he's like the hottest teacher ok?!
but he's married, like AWW.

Haha.
Him: You should get the shirt for me! I really like it.
Me : HAH!?
him: No, im serious.
Me: okay larh, next year teacher's day i get for you.
Him : no need to wait for next year.. hmm. children's day?
Me: but we not children anymore leh.
Him: where you stay?
Me: around the area.
Him : in that case can pick up or smtg

i was like wthh!
hahahaha, first time we joked around!xD
and we were like in the middle of the pathway.
he was like interested in my DAMN BIG prefect shirt xD
and then yeah. blabla.

:D

XHPS' ISH is super colourful!
(:

Okay, then we talked to Mrs Lee.
:D:D:D miss her .

haha.

Okay, then me and afiqah went round abouts.
farah went missing.
prolly out with her bf. so wtv.
(:

okay, ANDAND
I CANT STOP LAUGHING AT HAFIZ !
SORRY FIZ! XD
kau klakar uhhh, hahahaha.
serious! baby face dokk! xD
okayyyokayyy, *people know what i was doing*
staring at laughing, adorable la.
i thought like hafiz was the small bro or smtg
like omfg.
arafickkkkkkk kept saying he's joker and crap.
xD

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after awhile me and afiqah left and went pizza hut
to meet up again with the 20 6a peepz along with miss yin!
its like usual routine manz.

so basically, i took pictures there
:D so whatever.
afiqah went of earlier.

then yeah. A COUPLE HAD TO SPILL WATER INFRONT OF ME
AND MISS YIN.
*hints hints*
&& i hit Jia wei alot! heheheh.

((: then after taking group picture thanks to the LOVELY WAITER!
me & vicki & ky go get stuff for my home ec!
thanks guyz!:D

oh & ps; we treat miss yin half the price! haha
which was like 50 bucks.

Moving on, we shopped at heartland's cold storage!
wooots! and they gave idea fer my dessert!
i lurve my dars! :D

Greatest apology to these peepz! :
Arafick, Ariffin, Danial, Fazdli & Faiz M
! sorry to make you guys wait!
haha.

430pm went to hang out with the guys mentioned.
and they were psychos disturbing kids and aunties-.-
and i wonder why im friends with em.
LOL.

then 5pm. i had to "fetch" Rayyan-.-
While those guys left.

So left me & him.
We walked around, and talked about life.
and our past.
And books-.-

Walked ever so slowly due to his injured leg.
haha. im such a good friend^^
i can make him happy when he's sad ^^
okay, maybe cause im his ex, so how would i not know him,
right?

and things are always okay when we're around each other.
LOL.
and i felt like i was his . LOL.
okayy, no need to know whatever happened aites?

and i listened to his problems, he listened to mine.
and we argued like kids-.-
walked at the park whatever shit.

hahaha.
then we stay side by side, so yeah, walked together all the way.
(: and stupid larh he.
want me be his sister-.-
ergh, and then had stupid handshake by him.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

bestfs for life!
at least he bothers to knw what happend to his first love.
:D past and stuff. but then i kept on beating him.
hahaha.

;D
& i really thank him for letting me know about something.
i hope, i can really make "us" work right now.
i cant bare to lose that great friend of mine,
the one thats always with me,
the one that cried with me.
the one that accompanied me through the nights.

Dont know why we lost it.
Dont know why didnt make it.

& peepz, if you dont know who im talking about
shut the f up, aites?

Only Yan knows ^^
AND DONT YOU DARE LEAVE ME ALSO!
DAMN YOU.
rayyan only want see me cry cause of him.
>:(

but he's right,
me and _ shldnt have let it slipped away?
if we were together, things wont be this way.
im so sure, we wont part.
but things happen, people change.
guess....

i guess everyone find me weird today.
AND WHY ON EARTH IS EVERYONE ASKING ME HOWS LIFE
AND WHY THIS AND THAT
AND IF IM OKAY.

GET THIS : I AM OKAY.
MAYBE I AM NOT.
I AM THINKING ABOUT LIFE.
OKAY?
I KNOW IM EMO.
BUT IM TRYING TO FEEL BETTER OKAY!?
ergh )':

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& this blog only displays a day post!
find other posts below ^^

& pictures soon?

& i effing dont care about anything anymore!
its tearing me apart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i swear, this friendship's gonna be over soon.
fish you.
i should tell you, the reason im like this is BECAUSE OF YOU.
YOU GOT IT!?
ITS YOU , OKAY!?
SEE HOW MUCH I CARE ABOUT ALL THIS!
FCK! IF YOU COULD SEE WHAT IM DOING!
IM TRYING TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT.
AND YOURE THROWING SHIT ATTITUDE AT ME
JUST CAUSE IM DOING THE SAME!
FCK! YOU GOT THAT?!

YOU WANT ME, YOU TALK TO HER.
TELL HER THINGS I DONT KNOW.
AND YOU TALK LIKE YOU HAVE SO BLOODY EFFING FUN WITH HER
WHILE I STAY WORRIED WHAT WAS GOING WRONG.
FCK?! YOU GOT THAT?!
GOT THAT IN YOUR BRAIN!
FCKFCK.
LEAVE ME.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE!

I DONT WISH TO BE HURT AGAIN BY SOME OTHER GUY.

DONT YOU WONDER WHY IM GOING SLOW!?
FUCKFUCKFUCK.

IVE HAD ENOUGH WITH GUYS ALREADY.

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