i love this cousin-cousin thingyy. omg, i wonder whot he spoke to him. "so how? am i dead?" "why should you be dead?" okay, im a very fearful person, if you mind. but i dare. get it? hah!
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and its been long since a guy actually means the phrase, "i love you" to me. and well, two days ago, it just so happens. and didnt i tell you? im allergic to bullshit? (: so on, i rolled my eyes. whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. i hate guys. ;D thats no surprise, ya know?
honestly. i wanna be hyper and disorganised for awhile. can i? i wanna make a mess of my life, for once. why cant i now? grrr.
i miss, being in a mess. dont you miss seeing me haywire? well, i do. i miss drama too. o.o
cant wait for the juniors. ((:
i cant wait for school to be over. and also streamings.
i love school, dont you? :D
because im strong, i took the time, and let the tears run everytime something reminds me of you. and now that im getting stronger, your every words and action hurt me no more. i may be heartless to you, but you'll eventually know me. listening to the songs you hear when i didnt know you much, downloading them, and repeating it over and over again. was it worth it? trying to descipher what you were thinking and wondering. and now that its done, i listen to them again, hoping to understand you still. maybe i have, or not. but for sure, we live in two different worlds. where our thoughts are different. and misunderstandings occur. In this world, ive known from the start we werent meant to be. thats why i stopped hoping on you since love at first sight i still believe at it. but i study people well enough. you got me into this. you said i got into it myself. you got me falling for you. not that i wanted . whats more to say?
you left me drowning. you left me alone. and there you are HU HU HA HA -ing. okay, i better cut it out, later my boyf scold me :x
so thats why, IM LIVINGGG LIFEE!!!! :PPPP HAHA!
oh whatever, i need to spill okay? fine. maybe not now. hehe. if not now= never. aw.
its okay. some people are just so arrogant to even take the time, and listen, and think deep. cause just because of some errors, PFFT.
;DD
i told you, im strong.tho, at vivo, sights of couples hug here there, gave me migrane, no joke , man. amazinggggg what life can do. loll
seriously, i am so open minded. hah, sometimes i agree with people. sometimes i dont. i say what i need and feel, ;DD so yeahhhhhhhhhh. i may hurt you deep, well im sorry. im born to be straight forward, though IM TRYING SO HARDDD not to.
anyyywayyys, woah, im not crying. hehe, last cried : saturday.
omg. i think im a cry baby :/ okay, cut it out. sssshhhh! --
oh yeah. someone told me i should smile more on cameras. "i prefer you smiling than doing those funny faces. you look better, like you said, guys go crazy over a girl's smile ;p"
okay, i took his words. just so. im tired of funny fac-ing anyway. haha. :D
and ive totally forgotten how to be in love. how it felt like. o.o i cannot believe i can forget. haha, thats why im trying to learn now. through people, songs, past, and everything. still, its all weird. how do you fall in love? how did it felt? im sorry, ive forgotten everything. this scares me. will i ever fall in love again? x: i think im already a total anti. :o i neeed help, (in ten years time)
wait, i remember already. after reading this quote. oh gosh, i love it when he does that. heheheeeee. he = guess whoooo? confirm cannot guess ! haha! :P
oh yeahhh, and also another thing! hehehehe.
omg. im so jealous ok? how can my parents last since primary school til now!? ergh, envies* seriously. that means... nvm. but oh man, im jealous ok??????!?!?!!!??! aaaaahhhh!!!! its been like 40 years alreadyy?!?!!!!!!??!